My inner world..

CS537: Operating system day 1

2011-01-19T12:17:00.003-06:00

Interesting terminologies:

(1) turtles all the way down

The phrase comes from an anecdote told in the opening to Stephen Hawking's A Brief History of Time.

A well-known scientist (some say it was some say it was Bertrand Russell) once gave a public lecture on astronomy. He described how the earth orbits around the sun and how the sun, in turn, orbits around the center of a vast collection of stars called our galaxy. At the end of the lecture, a little old lady at the back of the room got up and said: "What you have told us is rubbish. The world is really a flat plate supported on the back of a giant tortoise." The scientist gave a superior smile before replying, "What is the tortoise standing on?" "You're very clever, young man, very clever", said the old lady. "But it's turtles all the way down!"

The phrase is used to describe any system that appears to have dependencies that never end.

(2) revision control

Revision control, also known as version control or source control, is the management of changes to documents, programs, and other information stored as computer files. It is most commonly used in software development, where a team of people may change the same files. Each revision is associated with a time stamp and the person making the change. Revisions can be compared, restored, and with some types of files, merged.

Example: http://git-scm.com/

(3) core dump

In computing, a core dump consists of the recorded state of the working memory of a computer program at a specific time, generally when the program has terminated abnormally (crashed).Core dumps are often used to assist in diagnosing and debugging errors in computer programs.

In more recent operating systems, a "core dump" is a file containing the memory image of a particular process, or the memory images of parts of the address space of that process, along with other information such as the values of processor registers. These files can be printed or viewed as text, or analysed with specialised tools such as objdump.

The term "core dump", "memory dump", or just "dump". has become jargon to indicate any storing of a large amount of raw data for further examination.

(4) Plan9

Best OS developed out there according to my professor.

Plan 9 from Bell Labs is a research system developed at Bell Labs starting in the late 1980s. Its original designers and authors were Ken Thompson, Rob Pike, Dave Presotto, and Phil Winterbottom.

Plan 9 demonstrates a new and often cleaner way to solve most systems problems.

Designer items. Why you shouldn't buy any of them until you can afford it.

2010-11-17T10:33:00.007-06:00

So, I have been addicted to browsing through the internet every night, looking at designer clothes, shoes and bags. It's not a very healthy addiction since i can never afford those items EVER.

You don't start doing something unless you know that you can continuously do that without having any bad consequences. Just like how your mum would advice you to not use moisturizer and cosmetics on your face when you are young to avoid your skin's dependence on these product, shopping for designer goods is the same. Once you start doing it, there's no returning. Although i envy Chiara from theblondesalad.com for having so many bags and shoes (all of them designers' items), i don't think that i'll ever be able to shop like her during this point of my life. Still, it's enjoyable to stalk her blog daily and see what outfits she wears daily :)

I personally do not think that spending all your savings on one or two pieces of designer's item is a comforting idea. Tempted as i am by the quality and the beauty of those products, i dare not push myself into that loop hole. God knows when i'll ever get out of it once i start buying those. I'll feel much safer with all my money still sitting in my bank account haha.

That being said, i might consider buying them only when it costs me 1/4 of my monthly savings.

Ski and snowboarding contest in the middle of Autumn

2010-11-13T16:45:00.009-06:00

I got out of discussion early one Thursday afternoon and guess what i saw at memorial terrace?

Just another reason to say that Badger rocks :)

As a MSA Committee Member

2010-11-08T22:46:00.009-06:00

I'm tired. I volunteered my time despite my heavy schedule to benefit the Malaysian community in UW-Wisconsin. I do not get paid for going to meetings, planning for events, and volunteering my time during events to set up things nicely so that Malaysians can have a good time coming together.

For many times i spent my time editing emails over and over again, so that my language is proper, so that my tone is humble and professional, so that i won't need to send another email out later to add in more details. Many of them consider emails from MSA a spam and blocked us out completely. I do not blame them, for many of them use the list as a tool to send out advertisement and notices that are considered unimportant to the Malaysian community. I have to admit, the email list is abused, but that doesn't mean that you should mark it as spam, and allow email service provider to block our email from reaching other's email box. Email me, the web master, who also handles the email list to get you off the subscription list, it's written at the bottom of the email for god's sake. I will gladly do it for you.

Often time, I paid for events, even if i'm the committee member myself. I ate last, having the leftovers, missing the most popular dishes for i'm the technical support and i'm needed when the event is going on. When food is insufficient, the committees eat the least, but do all the volunteering work. All these are invisible to the crowd, known only to the most dedicated group, us, the fellow committees. What the crowd could see and enjoy is only the fruit of hours of planning and preparation. If they knew what we go through, and put themselves in our shoes, will there still be complains coming from everywhere?

I volunteered myself as an MSA committee, hoping to serve the crowd and returning what warmth and joy that i'd felt by attending celebrations and MSA events during my first year in the states. What i did not know then, is how bad it hurts, even if it's just one person criticizing among hundreds of Malaysians. I do not know why my efforts and sacrifices result in criticizes and frustration of some people. Yes, they know not of what frustration we committees need to go through sometimes when it comes to budget limiting. Or perhaps they do know, and they are just wondering why they could cope with such in their previous experiences while we couldn't.

At las, you can satisfy no one, how true such saying goes. I should learn to deal with it and that is all. There are still lots of Malaysians out there who love our event and greatly support us in every way.

College Puzzle Challenge

2010-11-06T23:07:00.009-05:00

I went to Microsoft's College Puzzle Challenge today in a team of 4 with no expectation whatsoever to solve any puzzle but we manage to solve 10 of them just before the clock turned to 10pm :D Yay!! I am so proud of my team!! On average, we manage to solve a puzzle every other hour. That doesn't sound very exciting but that's what you get when you try to solve puzzles with only clues and no direct instructions.

Honestly speaking, i didn't think that i would have stayed there for 10 hours straight but i did because the puzzles were interesting and the occasional thrill of getting one solved kept my interest high. The competition was fun because I wasn't aiming to win; i was aiming to solve as much puzzles as i could.

The competition started at 12pm, but we reached there 45 minutes earlier for lunch and a short briefing on the event. We were given a green t shirt and it had a scary (puzzle name) printed on the back. Turned out, it was one of the puzzles that we had to solve :)

The competition wasn't very intense as we were given ample amount of time. We were too tired in the end to even think about the standing of our team among the rest of the groups. The rule was that we could sit anywhere we want (within the building) to work on the puzzles, we didn't need to face our competitors :)

Google is your best tool in this competition. Their search engine is exceptionally powerful, there is no information that you couldn't find. It's all about googling. Fear not about not having any previous knowledge on tapcode, morse code, country flags etc... You can learn them on the spot :)

Team work and the diversity of team mates' background is also quite important. I was glad that David joined our team because he's the only english native speaker that we can rely on. Also, Wei Ting's mathematical skills and interest in sudoku/kakuro etc etc helped much. I was not very analytical and didn't have much vocab but i had much patience and i did most of the googling work :) Since we didn't have any direct instructions to form the final answer, i tried out lots of different ways to form a sensible word from the solution. I am not sure what Davy did because he wasn't very talkative XD

In short, i had much fun today even though my eyes are kind of sore right now :P I should have went to facebook's hackathon too. It would have been fun i'm sure. This event was also a great learning experience. Solving puzzle is all about practice and having previous knowledge on the solution pattern of certain puzzles.

WorkLoad

2010-11-03T02:01:00.003-05:00

Thought of the day when i was cycling home at 12:30 midnight, "university students are generally overworked". I head out this morning at 8:45am and didn't get to go home until 12:30am. That's almost 16 hours? T_T

I don't get much time to myself between classes, work, assignments, extra club meetings, cooking and household chores like laundry and dishes. They are still piled up in every corner of my bedroom.

Busy busy busy but satisfying. I feel content. Such is life.

Yoga

2010-11-01T22:49:00.003-05:00

Fall is a season where you gain weight easily, or maybe it's just me... It's not really great to have a body that is fully alert of famine/change of weather when food and clothes is plentiful in this era.

When reality hits you hard, it's time to make a change... it's time to welcome the wonderful exercise of yoga, that allows you to burn away all your fats in every move. The wonder of aerobic exercises.

They say that routine becomes a habit if you manage to do it continuously over a period of 30 days or so... I wonder if that is true...

Corn Maze

2010-10-31T01:50:00.004-05:00

Quick post on what's going on with life.

2010-10-29T15:43:00.008-05:00

(1) I have 2 student jobs this semester.

I'm a Communication Assistant at UW-E Business Consortium. I basically help my supervisor with website and brochure/document updates.

I lead a small discussion of 9 people and guide them to complete some basic Java programming exercises.

(2) I have a camera that takes good video so i'm compiling videos every now and then.

(3) I'm very busy with school work because i'm taking 4 CS classes and since i'm working, i don't any energy left during the night to ponder over the materials that i've learnt during the day.

(4) I get to spend more now that i have $$ from work. The basic idea is that you'll never be able to buy anything much by saving the $$ you get from your guardian/parents. Earning $$ is the way to go. You don't need to struggle to buy an extra cup of coffee.

(5) I am dealing with Assembly Language... MIPS architecture... It's interesting to know how much easier life can be through the concept of abstraction. You will learn to appreciate HLL more.

(6) I have a bike, and I'm still cycling even though it's less than 5 Celsius outside :D I'd rather breathe in chilly air and endure the crazy wind for 8 minutes than to get out of my house 30 minutes before class and still risk being late.

(7) I am no longer staying alone.

(8) I have the recipe to make delicious egg tart, apple pie, and chocolate ice cream.

(9) I like to eat salad for some unfathomable reason.

Groceries Shopping

2010-01-24T22:05:00.002-06:00

America is probably the only place where i can see a parent's cart filled with BOXES of food products. The only thing fresh in the cart is bread and milk....

There are only few possibilities

1. They are lazy to cook.

2. They have too much money to spare.

3. They can't cook.

4. They think that processed food has more nutrients... they should watch out for over intake of nutrients =.=

Should i count this as culture shock?

Happy moments

2009-12-18T13:05:00.006-06:00

From today onwards, i'm only going to jot down happy moments because it's too depressing to keep on thinking about the bad moments. Those should just go away as soon as it happened. This might work better if i'm on twitter but alas, i'm too lazy to make a new account so i'll just spam this blog.

1. I picked up a free, brand new text book for STT's winter training (Website) today lol. It's so amazing because i not only get to attend a free course but also receiving free materials as well.

2. It's a free candy day in college library today :) I am trying to suppress the urge to keep on going back for more lol.

3. It's the study week for finals.... yet i'm studying something that is totally not related to my finals. I have no idea what to study for finals.

4. I finally knw why i'm addicted to chocolate. I love the creamy texture!!! Now i can always rely on milk + oats when i'm craving for some chocolate!!

random doodling 2

2009-12-13T21:43:00.002-06:00

原来读书是那么让人觉得安心的一件事。。。求得安心。。无愧于心

一个人生活其实并不孤单，因为每一天都有做不完的事情等着我去完成。

当你尝试过-16度的天气的时候，你就会觉得零度其实一点也不冷。还会为此气温而莫名地觉得开心。。

random doodling

2009-12-10T23:20:00.002-06:00

从来念书都不是我一个人的事情。。所以加油吧，就算再空闲也得想办法充实一下这几年的生活。。免得日后后悔。远在地球另一端的家人应该都对我抱着莫大的期望吧。。我纵使再任性也不会让一群人感到失落。

就算天气再冷也不能赖床。。。因为那只会让你觉得更冷，当你离开温暖的被窝的时候你才会意识到其实也不过如此而已。

其实人的适应能力确实是很强悍的。。。在一个热带国家成长的我竟然有本事在零下16度的情况下走路回家。。我都快无语了。。

这世上除了父母之外没有任何一个人会永远爱着你，当然你自己除外。

当你觉得很孤单的时候，切记，人本来就是一个人在行走。。偶尔才会停下来跟朋友聊聊天。

Surviving through the harsh weather

2009-10-19T19:09:00.004-05:00

Even though i had prepared myself for the impending coldness that is bound to befall Wisconsin, i had not given much 101 thought on how i can survive through the harsh weather. Recent weeks however tells me that human has a strong survival mechanism rooted somewhere deep within the body until it is needed.

I love to walk around the campus when the sun is out. I realize that this is a really unbelievable statement coming from me, a person who prefers monorail over the small walking distance between Times Square and Hang Tuah LRT station. Nevertheless, walking around Madison is definitely far more bearable when the tender cold breeze that touches my face is actually cold enough to neutralize the harsh sunlight. I would hate to sound delusional, but the sun is actually more lovely over here in the states. It's a part of nature that's widely cherished, not profoundly cursed (over and over again in 5 different language). Then again, you can avoid the heat in Malaysia, but you can't avoid the coldness in usa unless you have the sun on your side.

To be continued... back to ESL118 paper 2...

A sudden realization

2009-10-11T20:24:00.002-05:00

I woke up rather late this morning, a direct result from the ever lasting coldness in my room. That is however, not the main subject of today's post.

I woke up with a small leap in my heart. I had an odd feeling that i was staying in a hotel somewhere, vacationing. The working gears in my head however reminded me that i am actually staying in an apartment somewhere thousands of miles away from home. I cannot believe that my subconscious took 2 months to realize that i'm actually studying in America. This is so ridiculous.

异乡梦故人

2009-10-06T21:20:00.003-05:00

昨晚做饭的时候，我忽然忆起已故的外婆。或许是因为炒饭炒得还挺香的关系，我才会联想到外婆的蛋炒饭。。好遗憾的，我都快忆不起那香喷喷的炒饭到底是如何的了。

可笑的是，我并不念家。我思念的，反倒是小时候的点点滴滴。或许，在心底的某深处，我认定了家里的一切不会因我的离开而有所改变。或许她日，当我衣锦还乡的时候，一切都依旧不变，就仿佛我也从未离开过。

可恨的是，小时的记忆却从我的手中一点一点的流失，慢慢地越来越模糊。我好想。。好想。。把它给装进一个密封的瓶子里，可是我那有限的记忆却很残忍的，不容我回味，不容我珍惜。所谓的心有余而力不足也不过如此。痛苦，无奈。

梦中的外婆虽然不理睬我（一如过往我说梦见的外婆一样）或许那是我的潜意识在告诉我我们之间的距离吧。可从梦中醒来的那一刻，我的心是暖的，我的微笑是发自内心的。梦中的她，样貌依旧慈爱，依然还是在吃饭。奇怪的是，我每一次都梦见我的外婆在用餐。可她这次为什么在吃灯笼椒啊？怎么跟我现在的生活都有所相似呀？。。害得我连自我催眠成外婆在报梦的机会也给除去。。

都二十，即将有余的人儿了。。怎么还会热泪匡胤？

外婆她，应该像韩尚宫娘娘那么样，回到原来的地方去了吧。。她，回到小时候的家了吗？回到中国去了吗？多年的心愿应该也就有个了结了吧。。下次，让我把照片给带回去，让你看看唐山到底变得如何了。。

梦中的你，是在害怕我会孤单寂寞么？就如你当年飘洋过海似的。。

One among the many things which i am going to miss most about Malaysia [2]

2009-06-26T05:52:00.004-05:00

Ice kacang machine!!

Hell no, i'm just kidding... what i meant was Ais Kacang. Yup, this small little sweet delicacy that is especially common and uniquely Malaysian food. [It probably has a long history from Britain or something... and i'm lazy to go dig.]

The best place to eat ice kacang in KL is Fuji Snow in Teppanyaki restaurant right next to FOS @ Sg Wang. It's only RM3.50 and it definitely beats jaya jusco's Ice kacang which costs exactly the same!!

More on FOS

2009-06-10T12:30:00.002-05:00

Ampang Point was on fire!!!! Yes, and the fire was just right next to the shop where i worked at. It wasn't anything scary, just the usual cigarette bud light up the paper boxes that is located at the staircase.

In any case, the fire wasn't that bad, but the smoke was a little scary. I can't see anything beyond 1 metre. The good thing of it all is that i get to be out of the job while i'm still being payed. We, the staff flee away from the shop when the security guard came knocking on the gate.

Lazy to elaborate, so i shall just post the picture i took on a later date.

One among the many things which i am going to miss most about Malaysia [1]

2009-06-10T11:16:00.006-05:00

Mangosteen

Yes, this small little fruit with its juicy fillings and annoying purple shell/skin/outer layer that dyes your garments permanently if you are not careful with it. Translate it into English and i'd call it The Queen of the fruits?? Anyways, it's yummy, it's juicy and it used to be quite cheap. Note the word, used to be... until this particular fruit is shipped to Japan and its benefits on whatever disease was discovered. So yeah, dear friends, please help yourself with this fruit before you take off to America. I assume that it's going to be as expensive as banana (or probably even more so) over there. It will be ridiculous for me to spend a big sum of money on this fruit over there.

In Penang

2009-06-05T10:51:00.003-05:00

ohoho, this is the first time whereby i update my blog when i'm on a vacation :D Thanks to the marathon, my brother brought along his laptop and maxis broadband.

We are currently staying at Waterfall Hotel, the room looks decent and the bathroom is huge :D There's a bath tub too!!! i'm sooo going to fully utilize it later ahahhaha.

Went to have dinner at Gurney Drive earlier this evening. Apparently my mum is not quite happy with the food served over there haha, she thinks that KL food tasted better :P It's too bad that the food is a little salty tonight.

skipped everything in between, and i reached home around 2am.... zzz, that's like aorund 7 hours of driving =.=" What's with the amount of traffic in northsouth highway!!!!

Working at FOS

2009-06-04T22:14:00.004-05:00

Let me start with How i got the job. It's really easy and amusing really. I strolled into FOS, looking like i owned that place, and briskly walked towards the cashier. Then i asked "Are there any vacancies open here for part timers?" The guy [IS], who looked a little bit Zaim-ish [body movents] to me, pressed a button on the receipt printing device, and asked me to leave my contacts since his supervisor is having a break.

So yeah, i wrote down my name and hp number, and left the shop immediately, trying to look for other jobs in ampang point. I walked around, and met up with my mum at a Giordano Stock Clearance Sale. We were busily digging out clothes at the offer bin when my phone rang. aha, i happily ran up stairs and had a Really brief interview with the supervisor/shop executive assistant (as she always corrects me on) I think i got the job within 3 minutes of chatting.... and then i was thinking, "wow, that was fast??". I was later informed by an idiot that they were desperate for workers haha.

But in any case, working in FOS was like a torture to me during the first few days. My feet was practically aching whole day long and break time was like a TRUE release for me. Try standing for 8 hours long and having 1 hour break in between and you'll understand what i'm saying. I've never felt happier for a break. I literally danced into the store room, punched the card, and smiled all the way out. The work load wasn't heavy, i just had to keep the offer bin neat, and that includes folding the clothes back everytime a customer came in to ruin the perfect order. Going to FOS was happy as i was always chatting with someone whenever i get the chance to. I didn't feel pressured and everyone was nice and easy going. The only down side of it all, is that life turns to get boring when this turns routine. I never really had any time to do anything else besides reading the online fiction updates. I was always too tired to keep my eyes open.

Days went by, and i noticed myself getting heavier. This is not a good sign but i know the reasons. I always have to had my dinner an hour before bed time and working in shopping malls would mean having more fast food and snacks in my diet. The warning siren in my head starts to go off.

Finally, i couldn't take it anymore when every staff in FOS starts to turn moody. It's not just the black face that scares me, but the amount of violence shown when the staff gets frustrated. Everyone was so tensed. I get ridiculed when i don't finish off my work fast when she's the one that had insisted that i should always provide help and service to the customers before all else. But yeah, RM4 an hour can no longer tempt me from resigning. What more, i can't even talk with the staff when there's no customer. Not even a comment or two. It's annoying.

At the very least, i'm good at folding my clothes now :P

Im going to the uni of wisconsin madison

2009-06-04T13:03:00.001-05:00

Yes i know, it's old news. I just wanna put it up here anyways.

short update

2009-06-04T12:00:00.008-05:00

sometimes i wonder if i'm being too perasan.

Some idiot conned me by "confessing" that he loved me, just so that he can find out if i'm in love with him. Duh... even though i dun love him, or even like him more than a hi-bye friend, that doesn't mean that i dun feel like i'm FOOLED to the core!! Ishh...!!! okay, maybe my dose of confidence from someone is making me feel VERY perasan lately. It's good to remain ignorant.

And i'm going to make things clear with another person[initial WCH] as well. All these emotions are making my inner peace turning into a huge turmoil. After 20 years of being ignored...finally now somebody is interested in me ahhahahahahha... It's too bad that things are not meant to be, i'm sorry that i am so selfish. Though i can't give you anything but companionship in return, i wish for you to be concerned about me for a long time. I love chinese culture, my own culture too much..

Returning to my warcraft 3 life

2009-05-05T12:51:00.005-05:00

i used to play this game all the time when i was in form 2 ahahha. I can't believe that i'm back to this game after abandoning it for 2 years time. I was always so lazy to install and download the patch.

Warcraft 3 is an old game, so imagine my surprise when i can still see old maps like warhammer TD, warcraft maul, enfos, fuzas, and dota being hosted online. I can't believe that people still circulates those maps around after umm 6 years of time. I miss my clan. I used to join guilds/clans and i had lots of fun being one of the members. It was easy to find friends to start a game with. I miss those good old days.

Alas, streamyx have to stretch my nerve again for providing such slow connections. I used to play on us west gateways and though it was laggy, i could still manage to join games without getting kicked out. Nowadays, with the amount of time i have to wait before i can log into that server, i can just imagine how high my ping would be when i'm actually inside that server. It is going to lag like hell. Sadly, i can only stick to Asia gateway or Europe gateway today. I got to see lots of alien languages being typed out on the screen..... I don't know whether it's german, italian, french or ......... and frankly, that annoys me to no end because i'm a curious kitten.

ahh :D Sweet sweet game..

My camera is in China..

2009-05-01T11:31:00.001-05:00

My brother left my camera in China......noo.... this is madness, i cannot rely on my camera phone. It is too sucky in comparison to my camera..

Okay, no more updates on facebook until my camera has been posted back.

Admission decision

2009-04-30T12:12:00.006-05:00

Initially i had wanted to wait until the very end. However, i can only say that i don't have any more courage to continue this game of luck.

I've accepted uni of purdue's admission offer tonight. It is still 30th of April in America right now. Good bye university of minnesota and university of wisconsin. I have waited long enough.

Tonight, i was in despair. Yet, nobody was there to soothe my wounded heart. With my dreams shattered and my hopes crumbled, i can only say that, stay strong, my pitiful self.

The curse of A-

2009-04-29T11:17:00.001-05:00

OMG, i can't believe my results. 1 A+, 3 A- lol.... bwahaha....

At least i can get into dean's list again :D

Redang Island

2009-04-28T07:39:00.005-05:00

note: There are more pictures uploaded on my facebook.

I've heard about this Island ever since the movie "xia ri de mo mo cha" was out, and that was quite a while ago, 10 years maybe? The movie showed a beautiful island and i had longed for the day where i would visit that place. Thanks to Jay, i was given the chance to visit this wonderful island. I manage to pay for the trip, even though i was broke, like seriously broke after that.

We were in the bus for almost10 hours before we had finally reached the jeti. The journey woudln't have taken so long, if the bus didn't get lost for a couple of times.

Soon, we reached the Terengganu shore. We had to carry our bags for a short distance across the beach but luckily for me, the staff helped me carry mine, seeing that my trolley bag was kinda huge for a 3 days trip ahaha.

After that, we took a fast boat and reached Pulau Redang an hour later.

We were quite naughty during the trip. A few of us ran to the front of the boat, and was busy camwhoring away. I am almost sure that the staff were smirking at us for being all jolly. The air which the boat cut through at high speed created unnatural wind. We were therefore not slightly affected by the sun's deathly rays since the wind was cooling. We ended up staying under the sun during the whole trip. My hair though, was badly tangled together. Having learned the lesson, i tied my hair up during the trip home.

It was an interesting boat ride. We say sunrays passing through the clouds, and we saw islands that looked like a toad from far.

I was totally awed, as our board was nearing the shore, the sea water was as clear as the sky. I could clearly see the sand beneath the water. Some of us joked that the water was cleaner than Inti's swimming pool ahahah. Anyways, umbrella became a necessity as we climbed out of the boat. The sun's ray was murderous without the cooling wind.

We were immediately served with a glass of orange juice [such good service] as we waited for Jay to get our keys in the reception. After that, we walked passed a coupld of coconut trees and i saw something interesting. A poor goat was tied to a coconut tree!! Forgive me for being such a city girl, but that is the first time i've seen a real life goat!! [besides those in the zoo] The poor thing was neighing non stop. It wanted to eat grass on the other side of the road... poor thing. I wonder if the owner reared a goat in order to skip the labor work of cutting the grass. There was also 2 male chicken running around. I suppose that it served as a natural alarm clock.

Once again, the staff was understanding and kind. He offered to carry my bag yet again ahahah. We reached our 2 storey acommodation and we had to wash our feet [clear the sand] with the pipe provided before we head upstairs. I opened the door to my room, and i was once again awed. It looked comfortable and it smelled of wood. There were two lazy chairs by the balcony and we were able to climb across the balcony savely, into jay's room lol :D

Later, we rent our goggles and went for our first snorkeling trip in Redang. There was quite a fuzz initially, as there was only 5 power goggles left. Anyway, i manage to get one that fits my pathetic eyesight from TM. He had to use the normal goggles though, even though he couldn't see anything much after that. I just ran off, wiggling my tails happily away into the ocean.

- continue later, no mood towrite

Sayonara....inti UC....A2-32

2009-04-28T06:00:00.008-05:00

I could clearly remember the day my mum passed me the jpa parcel, containing an important piece of paper, contracts and booklets that sealed my life as a jpa scholar. I just came back from school, still dressed in my pinafore uniform. I sat in front of my desktop, browsing through some websites which i can no longer recall.

I looked through the parcel, which was already torn open. I was happy and yet slightly disappointed after learning the small little detail whereby i have to study in Malaysia for another 2 more years before i can truly spread my wings to America. Anyhow, the fact that i have scored myself a free tertiary education made everything else seem unimportant. Now, after having gone through these 2 years myself, i can only say that i'd never trade my life in Inti for anything elsewhere. In inti, i grew, i learned and I became a much better person. I have a bunch of good friends and they all left a great impact in my life.

Days passed and i found myself in my brother's car, trying to find the way to inti college during one sunday afternoon. Finally, we reached, and the only thing that caught my attention was the ugly looking bridge, linking two portion of inti together [academic block & sao concourse]. We went to buy a drink in the nearest 7-eleven and we left, just like that.

Then, the Day came. After having to go through all the boring procedures, i mange to drag all my bags into my new home. My mum and my brother left soon after, leaving all my luggage nicely scattered around the room. I felt truly alone for the first time in my life, as if i was abandoned without as much as a second glance. Nevertheless, i told myself that i'm an independent girl and i started to unpack everything, slowly filling my room with all the nonsense i brought. Weeks after weeks of stuffing, and my room slowly turned into something like this..

I did not know how i mange to pack everything back home, but i did, even though i was reluctant to do so then.

I packed alone, feeling as lonely as the first day i moved into this particular room. My roommate was long gone and that realization had finally dawned on me as i unlocked the door into my room, the very night i had returned from the Redang trip. Nothing much was left behind, and i knew that i would never ever have such a great room mate ever again.

My roomate is the girl on my right. Isn't she a pretty little thing? ^^ She's got the best taste in fashion and the *bestest* room mate on earth.

Lils taught me a lot of things, even though she might not have realized that. She's a sweet girl who loves to share her life. I learned to be a more sociable person through her constant efforts of throwing small little questions to inquire about my life. As days passed, i realize that i always mimic the ways she speaks, unintentionally. Sometimes, i wish that i could share my life the way she shared hers. It's so sad that i can never really remember what people said and i can only repeat my experience in a slightly biassed way.

She showed me another type of life which she has had, one that is quite different from mine. It made me realize how peaceful my life was and how different a person's life can be even though we basically live in the same country namely Malaysia. I think that we are students who came from two extreme ends (education wise). Im a chinese independent school student, while she's from an international school. Bwahah, she created an english speaking environment for me and i believe that it made me a better english speaker. [I was especially surprised when someone told me that she didn't think that i could read chinese. She was extremely surprised when she knew that i'm from a chinese independent school. ahahahah.... I am happy not because i think that being banana is superior. I am happy because i can fool her into thinking that i can speak good english, or at the very least, better than my chinese]

Goodbye, A2-32. It will no longer be my room as the new semester starts...

My Birthday Bash

2009-03-23T13:48:00.003-05:00

Before i start, i have to say that i want to murder a certain someone someday in the future but that story will have to wait...

This is just like any other days in the week, and i was as usual, busy with club activities... I was so clueless, being led around mindlessly and i never for one tiny moment, second that there is anything planned going on behind my back. I guess i'm just really too hopeless in my observation skills.

So there i was, innocently attending the so called "MAG club meeting" at 10pm. The meeting was full of gossips, conversations and what not. We were not discussing about anything specific, nothing important. Although i felt odd and slightly annoyed, i thought that Adrian was just checking up on publicity's work... After a short while, he decided to end the meeting. I felt weird, but i didn't comment. The group later suggested to have supper at dining hall. I didn't want to go, as my whole body was covered in sweat. I had wanted to go back and clean myself up but somebody was smart enough to tempt me with free supper... Gah... and no Adrian, i didn't hear the sentence "Eating cake in dining hall"...

Oddly, the walked up to second floor, AO common room when we were clearly going to dining hall. I thought that someone had accidentally left something there so i just followed.. I cannot believe that i'm so stupid, but yes i was. I hadn't suspected anything, at all. They paused in front of the stairs, and i waited for Kira who was greeting his friend in the common room since the whole group stopped walking. Anbin left somewhere else, and i thought that he ran ahead to meet someone else who called him earlier, approximately 10 minutes ago. I suspected that it was Sulin calling, but i was just feeling like teasing him then, i didn't know that a woman's 6th sense does work, albeit how insensitive mine came to be. After that, i walked down the stairs, i was looking at the dining hall, and thought that "Hrm.. the drinks stall is closed. Cannot minum anything already...".

However, a second later, some number of people was screaming on my left side. I turned my head to the left, and saw 3 or 4 people whom i recognized. I wondered what they were doing... but as i looked, i could see a lot of people there whom i know, staring into my direction simultaneously. I had no clue what's going on, i thought that they were teasing me and Anbin again, as usual. I forgot what happened next, but i came to realize that they were having a party, to celebrate my 20th birthday. The first thing that came into my mind was, "oh no, i dun want to be the spot light of the night" and "OMG >< im being led around like a fool this time... this must be my karma of playing with/ fetching Xiang Ling around last time". I blabbered something like, "it's not even today, why they celebrate today?" It's a little negative i know, but I really wanted to run away lol for that split second. My natural instinct lol.. I acted stupid, as if i don't know what's happening although i came to realize the truth. [Im so sorry everyone, but this is my first time, having a surprise birthday party especially for me. I felt like i duno what i'm supposed to do, helpless on how i'm supposed to act, i cannot comprehend..] I felt shy as everyone started singing birthday song and i tried to hide behind somebody... anybody...Was my cheeks red?

So then, after the song came the bday wishing part... It's not my tradition to make a wish, and my wish is definitely not what everyone was hoping to be. After that it was a whole lot of drama haha. In order to satisfy the public, I tried to be satisfy their expectations while calculating on how i should act to create a drama that is not too self-desctruct. TM came and blabber on "Today, we gather here to.....". I suppose i wasn't really that sporting but hey, i dun wanna kill my facebook tonight. I said, "No, i don't" and though i was tempted to say yes, my rationality stopped myself from continuing this act. Amusing as it can be, i dun wan the whole work to think about something that wasn't anywhere close to the truth. I think i could feel an aura of "Aiyo, this is no fun..." from TM haha, but yealar, i do act like a hedgehog when i feel danger lol... my mouth turns spikey and my words turns cruel/cold. The bouquet of origami rose made me feel like, omg >< this is so not true lol.. This time i can't clear my "image" even if i manage to fly to China and jump into the Yellow river lol.. the picture is going to be somebody's black mail material in the future lol >< Nah, just kidding. But i'm sure that my mom's going to kill me with her dozens of questions if she ever sees that.

I felt odd walking in between people as i tend to stick to those who are closer to me when i'm in a huge group. Then again, i knew that i had to at least speak with those who took their time to be there. I was especially touched to see those who are not really that close to me... Lei keng, Geratt, Kai Zhi + Gang especially made me feel really really ><... surprised i suppose. I didn't think that they'd come...Im sure someone really put in a lot of effort, trying to gather so many people together tonight, for small little me haha.. whoever that person is, i thank you.

That bouquet of flowers made this little drama escalate to the optimum. Haha, technically im not "married" yet. There's no ring to pull us together... then again, i think i'll have to murder more people for making that bouquet of roses.. Such brilliant ideas to make the drama even more dramatic lolz...... somebody beware lol...

I didn't think that i manage to layan everybody, but i tried. I can't help but stick to a certain group of people >< It's my nature. I feel so happy that my MAG friends are there, Adrian, Wing, Chu, Tiffany and Anbin for accompanying me tonight and Wen woon for being there as well even though you left early. Im sure that you were busy and i appreciate your effort of walking all the way here from Desa Palma. I had a great time, talking crap >< with you guys...sniff [I feel so paiseh when they say that it's due to my big mouth that they had no problem saying random rubbish for almost one hour, lol i guess that i'm really just that good at complaining..]

My ICT gang, i know that we do not have much time together anymore so..... sniff, let's enjoy our trip in redang yay :D Then again,I am yet to be admitted to Wisconsin or Minnesota... who knows where i'll end up studying..

Sulin and Chung Dih >< Thanks for the cake, i really loved the selection :D It's creamy and it's coffee haha... Is that Tiramisu or something? It must have cost you a bomb XD The flowers well, it's a little damnable since it's used as a tool for ahem.......thanks for the effort though, it's really sweet of all 3 of you people :P Thxxx thxx. Was it Siew Yoong, sulin and Chung Dih??? [P.S.. Please watch your back lately.... hehehehe]

Hehe, my roomieee lils N Wen Li, thanks for the J Co Donuts haha..Hope that you all didn't go down to Pavilion just for me >< I'll be so touched... =D I think that i'm definitely going to gain lots of weight these days lol,for having such a sweet tooth. woo ><

Anbin, thanks for your card, I do not know if it's your good photoshop edit, or if it's due to my own obsession towards my "act-cute" pictures..i really love that design XD. You can always design something really nice haha, Thanks for the white day designs too XD It's been years since i last received any birthday card, full of wishes for myself, or is this the first? I cannot recall. Usually, i'm the one scribbling down my signature Garfield in other people's card... it's never the other way round.. Thanks for planning this party, together with Sulin, it's definitely a bookmarked page in a book that records my life.

To my brother who might never ever read this blog, thanks for the olympic camera, cupcakes and dinner at Manhatten Fish Market.. although i'm happy that you are starting your own business, i'm beginning to dislike the fact that you drink and socialize until 3/4 am in the morning. Let's just hope that nothing bad befalls you, because i'm really hopeless in stopping you from doing all these things. My big bro is an adult now...and i don't like any bit of it.

To my high school friends. Thanks Harn Harn, Jia Yen, Yee Ru, Addy, Mei Chee, Duck Duck, and someone else who remembered..The rests...I am going to phone and screw you up soon if you still do not realize my birthday by tomorrow, lolz....

I'm finally turned 20 at 22/03/2009. Im old enough to be a mum now, as my mother always put it.. but that doesn't make me feel any more mature than who i was years ago.

Grammatical errors to be edited tomorrw.....

Origami Challenge 3 - six pointed star box

2009-01-26T14:13:00.011-06:00

Took me long enough *sweat*...12 pieces of A4 paper...

Doesn't look too shabby as a first attempt :P

Side Note: In case you are wondering, i took all the origami instructions from this website.

Origami Challenge 2 - Turtle

2009-01-26T09:49:00.001-06:00

Original Pic

My origami turtle

Failed attempt

uhuh

Origami challenge 1 - Heart Box

2009-01-26T09:08:00.004-06:00

Original picture from pda file :P This is what it's suppose to look like

This is my work :P

Side Note: You can get the instruction to fold this box here

CNY Day 1 - Preparations to welcome the God Of Wealth

2009-01-26T03:17:00.011-06:00

It was 3:30 in the morning. My eye lids were heavy, my body was sweaty, my legs were turning jelly and there i was, running about the house, replacing the earlier offerings with another set of fruits. You can't use the same offerings twice. [One of the reason why my home is full of fruits...]

New things included: Vegetarian food, fried mee hun, fried fu zhuk and something sweet [eg: Cake & chocolate cookies] We also had to reposition the table so that it is facing the East side. You might end up welcoming some other gods like the evil ones if you were facing the wrong side. The direction and time of praying varies from year to year.

The left over ashes: Evidence to how much pollution that we had contributed to the air. We burned at least 5 stacks of silver paper 金银冥纸 and some other random stuff.

Coffee & Green Tea can make you lose weight!!!

2009-01-24T14:03:00.008-06:00

Drink caffeine and lots of it. Okay, maybe not too much. The caffeine you consume in a drink is the same as the caffeine that is included in diet pills, the only difference is you can control the source of the caffeine.

Green tea has been scientifically shown to improve weight loss efforts

Caffeine has been scientifically shown to increase metabolism

so why not combine them together. Hot green tea in the morning in place of that cup of coffee will also help reduce the amount of calories you consume during the day unless you drink you coffee black and that must hurt!

--Quoted from http://www.totalhair.net/articles/hair-styles-cat-beauty-id-88.html

There you go. Finally, a good reason to enjoy my cup of coffee :P
Caffeine aint all that bad now, is it?

Pre-CNY preparation - Prepare the Chinese altar

2009-01-24T10:23:00.019-06:00

Now, i really have no idea what this is for, other than the fact that we will have it placed on the altar, right next to the divine porcelain figure.

I suppose we must have red for everything during CNY. I really hate the red paper though. See the red color stain on the floor? The color comes off easily when it gets in contact with water.

I had to wash these plastic cups & plates this afternoon. We usually fill them up with chinese tea & a variety of fruits [Eg, apples, oranges, mandarin oranges, banana, pear, pineapple.....] It basically serves as a usual offerings to the God/Goddess/Ancestors. We change them every 15 days, during every month's new moon and full moon. [It goes in accordance to the Chinese calender: during each month's 1st and 15th day.]

My mum =) Arranging the flower offerings

[Altar for the Sky God, 天神]

[Land God??? 地主公]

[Ancestors 祖先 .. Guan Gong 关公 .. Guan Yin 观音]

The Altars prepared for the praying done during the last day of a year

Side Note: If you are going to buy a bouquet of flowers for your Chinese girlfriend, please remember not to ever buy the flower shown above, especially the white colored one. They are used during japanese funerals. Get Roses or something. The variety is there. Correct me if i'm' wrong though.

New Blog

2009-01-22T04:35:00.003-06:00

hihi, i just created a second blog yesterday after much contemplation. It's called Winnie's Passion. it's a very unoriginal name, yes i know.

anyways, please have a look over there if you'd like to buy me any presents haha, j/k. There will be many post on items that i love =)

Winnie News Update

2009-01-19T01:24:00.003-06:00

I have finally settled all my university applications, with an exception to sending in certain documents such as high school transcripts. I wonder if i can even get such document from my high school advisers. I might just end up having to photo state my report book - a notorious book that held all my awful results. Duh, I can't believe the amount of effort and time i had to sacrifice in order to finish up my personal statements/college application essays. I might just post it up here someday just for the sake of my hard work. I wonder if they will even read the whole thing before stamping "REJECT" on my paper.

Anyways, Chinese New Year is around the corner and along with it, the depletion of my bank account. I had bought quite a number of goods during these past few weeks. Gulp.

Mwahah, as a side note, my microeconomics teacher got sick after eating too much mandarin oranges.

My life is great

2008-10-17T14:08:00.004-05:00

Happiness has always been around me. It's just that i have never realized it up until now. I had a lengthy chat with my friend earlier today, and i realize that although my life was fairly tedious and full of academic work, it was a peaceful one. In comparison to a lot of people's life, mine was a fairly simple and happy. Though it had its own rocky side, it was nevertheless smooth in comparison to others'.

I now know that i have the best mother and brother in this world. Though my mom was fairly scary in the past, much of her temper has dissappeared as she grew wiser. My brother who live his life 5 years ahead of me has always shown me to the best path to life. Everyone spoils me in my family, which is probably why i speak like a savage nowadays.

Life is always full of surprising. I never knew that i am such a lucky person on earth.

Interesting Codes by Atheist

2008-09-23T12:43:00.003-05:00

**Warning, do not read if you get offended when religion is being insulted**

(1) "[The Bible] has noble poetry in it... and some good morals and a wealth of obscenity, and upwards of a thousand lies."

(2) “I was a freethinker before I knew how to think”

(3) "The trouble with the world is that the stupid are cocksure and the intelligent are full of doubt. " - Bertrand Rusell

(4) "Gods are fragile things; they may be killed by a whiff of science or a dose of common sense

(5) "Whenever a poet or preacher, chief or wizard spouts gibberish, the human race spends centuries deciphering the message.

(6) "My young son asked me what happens after we die. I told him we get buried under a bunch of dirt and worms eat our bodies. I guess I should have told him the truth--that most of us go to Hell and burn eternally--but I didn't want to upset him."

(7)"If atheism is a religion, then anorexia is a style of cuisine."

(8) "Calling Atheism a religion is like calling bald a hair color." Don Hirschberg

(9) "Religion is like chemotherapy, it may solve one problem, but it can cause a million more."
-- John Bledsoe

(10) "Religion is regarded by the common people as true, by the wise as false, and by rulers as useful."

(11) "We must question the story logic of having an all-knowing all-powerful God, who creates faulty Humans, and then blames them for his own mistakes."

(12) "With soap, baptism is a good thing."

(13) "I would never die for my beliefs because I might be wrong. " - Bertrand Russell

(14) "When one person suffers from a delusion, it is called insanity. When many people suffer from a delusion it is called religion." - Robert Pirsig

Envious

2008-09-21T11:19:00.005-05:00

Connie Talbot is a 6 ~ 7- year-old British girl who manage to capture the hearts of millions with her beautiful voice. Singing like an angel from heaven, the little girl went famous overnight through her participation in British Got Talent show.

I have gotta admit, i'm envious of her because she's been to so many countries at such a young age. She can easily have access to things that i've been aching to have for so long. That got me to think. What am i doing here wasting my life on youtube when i should be focusing on my studies? Gah, you really do need some serious motivation to attempt moral assignments or writing debate scripts on topics that you don't really give much damn on.

What was i doing when i was at her age?

Beautiful chinese songs

2008-09-05T12:46:00.004-05:00

This post is dedicated to a friend of mine who loves to listen to classic, Very classic, and old old old old old old old songs (maybe not that old for some of them). Here it goes, i bet you've never listen to any of them before, it's very sweet, so i hope that you'll load it :)

韩红——天涯

阿兰《天路》

成龍& 金喜善 <<美麗的神話>>

China classical music peri

Moon cake

2008-09-03T07:00:00.006-05:00

:D Ahh, moon cake, the best festival of the year (in my opinion) :D

Not because of lanterns, candles, myths, gathering or even the legendary moon cake itself. I just like to see the packaging for moon cake :D I remember how moon cake used to come with a normal steel box that would get rusty in a few years time and it turn all nasty before you finally decide to shove it into the rubbish bin. But NOW, it comes in a million type of designs because of the healthy competition going on among the dozens of manufacturers. :D This competition often benefits the consumer, aka US.

I am a collector of moon cake boxes, but i always ended up kicking it to a corner in my house. They produce fabulous packaging in recent years and i even bought 4 pieces of moon cake for RM 75 just because of the beautiful packaging that comes along with it. :D

P.S This is literally the Moon Cake

*image copied from lowyat.net*

Got tagged

2008-09-02T07:38:00.003-05:00

People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1 ) Are you allowed to have a bf/gf?
Erm, no, i don't think so.

2 ) Describe urself in one word.
Explosive

3 ) Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
Being loved is the best feeling in the world. So yea, someone who really loves me.

4) Have you ever loved someone BEFORE but never had the courage to tell him/her?
Arr, no. Silly crush maybe la, but that was quite a while back.

5 ) Does it feel good to love?
Umm, i suppose, not sure if i was ever in love ohoh.

6 ) What's the best thing to do with the one you love?
Cuddle :)

7) What will you say to someone who doesn't want to believe you??
Fine, don't believe me lor

8 ) Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
How do you know its love and not like or fancy or admire?
Umm, i believe that love could be developed if your "fancy/admire" feelings were returned.

9 ) What's your opinion about someone who's jealous?
Depends on what type of jealous.
Jealous of someone accompanying someone = cared for the certain someone
Jealous of someone's well being = shove it down your *** and look away

10 ) What would you say to playboys/playgirls?
Watch out for AIDS

[[ * PART 2 * ]]

1 ) Best place to cry?
Bathroom, with shower on

2) Who do you love the most?
Myself

3 ) Tell us about ur dream last night?
Didn't get enough sleep to remember my dream.

4) Ever hated someone so bad?
Yes, until i felt like sending her a black rose.

5 )The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?
Don't think there is.

The last person..
-you had a beer with?
my brother. My first taste of beer, and it tasted so bitter that i have no idea how people can drink this thing whole night long.

-you went to the movies with?
my last time at the movies was with my brother gua, can't remember..

-you talked on the cell phone with?
erm. . . my uncle, asking for my brother's hp no

-you hugged?
um, duck duck, the only person i've ever hugged. You can imagine who initiated it haha. I don't hug people :D

-you yelled at?
Probably my dad. annoying & stubborn.

In the last week have you..
~Kissed someone?
No

~Danced crazy?
No

Think of the last time u were angry, why were u angry?
i was trying to play WoW and people has to bug me

If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be?
Be beautiful, rich and successful. Perhaps that's a little too much ahaha

If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?
England. Pound is expensive O. I wanna see the Queen.

Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
I don't think so :) Jokingly yes lar.

Are you old fashioned?
Depends on what issue it is about.

What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
the former

What thing would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
My youth :D, sadly, i will have to say goodbye to it eventually

5 Facts About Me:
Have a love hate relationship with fashion
Applying nail polish right now
Loves to eat raw salmon (sushi)
Secretly in love with the idea of being a temptress (Sadly, it would never happen)
Loves traditional costumes (Korea, Japan, china. . .)

5 Things that Scares Me:
Spiders.
Darkness.
Height (not an object's height)
Insects crawling into my ear
Being rejected

7 Songs Playing in My Head Lately:
Fly -- Hilary
Raise your voice -- Hilary
Stranger -- Hilary
That's how you know -- Enchanted
When there was me and you -- HSM
Bop to the top -- HSM
What i've been looking for -- HSM

7 Words/Things I Always Use:
Computer, comb, mah brain, toilet seat, "Crazy", bed, handphone

I tag...

Jia Hao
Lee Ping
Zaim
bamboo pig
Jia Yen
Anbin
Lils

You tube

2008-08-31T07:13:00.003-05:00

Ugh, i don't know what's wrong with Malaysia. They can't just ban videos on youtube, or the other way round. What's with not available??? It just drives me up the wall. Try Avril Lavigne's official channel, at least 5 of the videos are not available.

Hilary Duff

2008-08-28T02:22:00.003-05:00

:) I've almost forgotten how much i love her songs. I wonder when her next album will be released. Shall google it later :D I love Hilary Duff, she's got a lovely voice :D

Raise your Voice

Fly

I'm going up to Genting now :D Tadda :D

BTW, AUP result is out, i didn't score that bad, but bad enough anyways. Frankly, i'm quite surprised at the result. It is oddly high for what trash that i've written in finals.

Chinese caligraphy water graffiti

2008-08-26T13:32:00.002-05:00

I'd been writing chinese caligraphy for yearssssssss with a regular brush and never got the character to look anything remotely close to what you'd label as presentable. I know how hard it is to get the writing look artistic and beautiful as a chinese word should look like. You gotta use the right amount of strength, hold the brush at the right angle, remember which place to push the brush harder, which place to hold the brush higher so as to make a nice stroke . . . etc etc. .

I never bothered learning all those things, which is why my writing is still so terrible after years of practice and i'm often disgusted with the smelly ink

[2 year old bottle ink that's often dipped with bacteria infested water therefore turning it smell so disgusting. Just to let you know, you are supposed to pour the ink out into a smaller container instead of dipping your brush into the bottle, but i was lazy so yeah]

THEREFORE, IN CONCLUSION, i know how hard it is to get the words out looking good and proper, not to mention in such speed and accuracy [the size of every single word looks the same]

I can only say that, THe Video is So Effing AWESOME. God, now i wish that i can visit china someday :D It's AmAzinG

High Latency in WoW Sucks

2008-08-25T08:02:00.003-05:00

Imagine walking on a street, strolling happily in a cat form when a god damn horde has to appear and start attacking me just for being different. That's the thing i hate about playing in contested [Probably got the wrong spelling] territory. Enemies come and attack you in your own homeland. That gotta suck.

To top it up, my latency has to be so high tht i can't even cast a healing magic [Lagging]. The next thing i know, i'm Dead. I bet that idiot must be feeling so good right now, dancing his ass off feeling so fucking smug just cauzz he get to kill a 22 lvl Elf when he's in lvl 20.

对汉服的疯狂

2008-08-22T13:56:00.002-05:00

天啊，每每看见华丽的汉服，我就忍不住很想拥有一件穿穿。毕竟，汉服曾是全世界最美丽的服装，虽然被遗忘了400多年，近年来，汉服的复兴的道路，虽漫长，却确实地在向前蔓延着。

有礼仪之大是为夏，有服章之美为之华

所以啊，汉服可谓是华族的代表:P

Pictures and videos of the beautiful Han Fu [Traditional chinese costume]

2008-08-21T14:44:00.010-05:00

Huang He Lou

So cuteeeee :P

This is what i call leng zai :P
Guys look much hotter with long hair ^^
*drools*

Photoshop

2008-08-21T10:40:00.007-05:00

The easiest way to make yourself look pretty without going through all the trouble [in my opinion] is to edit your own pictures. They say that photoshop can do wonders on photos if you know your way around it. Playing around with the software alone wouldn't get you anywhere without proper tutorials & guidelines. Unlike a simple cell phone, photoshop is too complicated to understand by trying out all the available functions. Hence, the need for a guideline.

I'm a very lazy person and photoshop books/e-books alike bores me like a us history text book does. I prefer the video tutorial. :)

You really don't need much to get started :P, but you most definitely need the program to practice on :P [click here]

Basic photoshop tutorial from expert village

Dangerous alternative on Olympic games

2008-08-21T05:42:00.003-05:00

Jokes

2008-08-20T11:54:00.002-05:00

I think all these jokes are pretty hilarious :) Enjoy reading through each and every one of them :P
Originally from here

At the Party with the Physicists

One day, all of the world's famous physicists decided to get together for a party (ok, there were some non-physicists too who crashed the party). Fortunately, the doorman was a grad student, and able to observe some of the guests...

* Everyone gravitated toward Newton, but he just kept moving around at a constant velocity and showed no reaction.
* Einstein thought it was a relatively good time.
* Coulomb got a real charge out of the whole thing.
* Cauchy, being the mathematician, still managed to integrate well with everyone.
* Thompson enjoyed the plum pudding.
* Pauli came late, but was mostly excluded from things, so he split.
* Pascal was under too much pressure to enjoy himself.
* Ohm spent most of the time resisting Ampere's opinions on current events.
* Hamilton went to the buffet tables exactly once.
* Volta thought the social had a lot of potential.
* Hilbert was pretty spaced out for most of it.
* Heisenberg may or may not have been there.
* Feynman got from the door to the buffet table by taking every possible path
* The Curies were there and just glowed the whole time.
* van der Waals forced himeself to mingle.
* Wien radiated a colourful personality.
* Millikan dropped his Italian oil dressing.
* de Broglie mostly just stood in the corner and waved.
* Hollerith liked the hole idea.
* Stefan and Boltzman got into some hot debates.
* Everyone was attracted to Tesla's magnetic personality.
* Compton was a little scatter-brained at times.
* Bohr ate too much and got atomic ache.
* Watt turned out to be a powerful speaker.
* Hertz went back to the buffet table several times a minute.
* Faraday had quite a capacity for food.
* Oppenheimer got bombed.
* The microwave started radiating in the background when Penzias and Wilson showed up.
* After one bite Chandrasekhar reached his limit.
* Gamow left the party early with a big bang while Hoyle stayed late in a steady state.
* For Schrodinger this was more a wave function rather than a social function.
* Skorucak wanted to put everybody on his web site.
* Erdos was sad no epsilons were invited.
* Born thought the probability of enjoying himself was pretty high.
* Instead of coming through the front door Josephson tunnelled through.
* Groucho refused to attend any party that would invite him in the first place.
* Niccolò Tartaglia kept stammering throughout the evening.
* Pauling wanted to bond with everyone.
* Keynes was keen to question the marginal utility of this party.
* Shakespeare could not decide whether to be or not to be at the party.
* John Forbes Nash wanted to play a n-person zero sum game.
* Pavlov brought his dog; which promptly chased after Schrodinger's cat.
* Zeno of Elea came with two friends - Achilles and the tortoise.
* Bill Gates came to install windows.
* Bertrand Russell kept wondering if the cook only cooks for the guests, who cooks for the cook?
* Witten bought a present all tied up with superstrings.
* The food was beautifully laid out by Mendeleyev on the periodic table.
* Riemann hypothesised about who would arrive next; to which Newton retorted, ' hypotheses non fingo.'
* Chadwick was handing out neutrons free of charge.
* Everyone was amazed at Bell's inequality.
* Watson and Crick danced the Double Helix.
* While Fermat sang, 'Save the Last Theorem for me.'
* Maxwell's demon argued with Dawkin's friend, the selfish Gene.
* Russell and Whitehead insisted on checking the bill for completeness and consistency. Godel said it was incomplete and it can never be proved otherwise.
* Epimenides the Cretan announced that only non-Cretans spoke the truth.
* Rontgen saw through everybody.
* Descartes cogitated, 'I think I am drunk. Therefore I am at the party.'

Clinique's Special Event -- 'Day to night in a blink. All about easy eye transformations'

2008-08-19T11:37:00.009-05:00

I received a Digi Reward SMS yesterday for a free make up consultation by Clinique. After a brief research on the website, (click here) i found out about this special event by clinique from 18 - 24 August. You get to have 2 sample item for free upon a free make up consultation. Feeling slightly curious on Clinique cosmetics and getting tempted by the word FREE, [more to the latter than former], i went for it.

You've got to make an appointment with the Clinique make up artist before you get the free consultation so therefore i suggest that you go straight ahead to the counter upon reaching before anyone else went ahead you and snatched the time slot.

I went to this Clinique counter at Jusco Mid Valley & got a free make over from this sweet lady named Siew Foon. She was patient with my incessant questions and did a fantastic job on the make up. I looked stunning (or as stunning as i could ever be) with purple smokey eye. I requested for a smokey eye and she had gladly taught me how to do it. She was willing to use any product that i had inquired upon. She wasn't stingy on any product sample :)

Throughout the whole process, she had not once asked/hinted me to buy any items from her (saved me the headache on refusing her with any lame reasons i could come up with) and i was very happy (& secretly relieved) with her for being so understanding. She gave me 2 pc of sample as promised. She told me to return and get something from her after i've finished up whatever product that i (might) currently be using. She wasn't pressuring me into buying anything. For that alone, i'll be more than willing to go back to her and consult her regarding any cosmetic products that i might be interested in. There's a high chance where i'll buy my very first eye shadow palette from her :D, or maybe some skin care products. [She was stunned that i didn't use any moisturizing/toner/sun block on ma face :D]

Now, for the products that she had used.

Brow Keeper

Airbrush Concealer Illuminates, Perfects

Colour Surge Eye Shadow Quad

NEW Long Last Glosswear SPF 15

Quickliner for Eyes

I couldn't remember what type of mascara, foundation and powder that she had used on my face :( They all looked pretty much the same to me.

-Pictures to be uploaded on a later date. I left my cable in hostel :( . My malfunctioning camera doesn't do justice on the perfect make up that she had patiently put on-

Continuation on Inner Double Eye Lids Research

2008-08-18T14:50:00.003-05:00

内双明星榜样1：章子怡

出道时被圈内人赞为拥有娱乐圈“最清澈的眼睛”，象征东方美的小内双，让很多人记住了她。当时有人“大胆“地预言，她将是1999年最亮的一颗星。后来，这颗凝聚东方美的新星，光芒波及了整个世界。

美眼秘笈

深色皮肤更容易显眼睛小，如果肤色不够白，可以补点自然色的粉底。视线转移也非常有效，可爱的腮红和诱人的双唇都可以成为你的视觉中心。

内双明星榜样2：大S

永远敢作敢为，永远无所畏惧，永远狂热于美容，也永远忠于上天的赐予，尽管有自己不满意的部位，也不在身上动一刀。眼睛笑起来眯眯的，但仍然比不少大眼睛的女子美得多。

美眼秘笈

厚重或过长的刘海儿会让眼睛看起来更小，粗眉毛也是单眼皮美女的大忌。

内双妆容要点

1、大胆尝试粉嫩色。

很多人都认为单眼皮的人要画色彩浓重的眼妆才能让眼睛变大，其实浅色的眼影同样适合小内双。不过要注意选择偏冷色系的颜色。小内双的眼睛同样也有浮肿的问题，所以要用淡色眉粉修饰眼窝和鼻梁。

2、内眼线画法最适用。

内眼线画法不仅维持了淡色眼影的澄净感，也不会使小眼褶因为眼线太粗而看不见，再搭配上较深的同色系眼影轻刷在下眼睑上，更让立体效果加倍。

内双的完美眼妆

1、用淡紫色水彩眼蜜在眼窝处打底，让色彩更丰满。

2、把淡紫色的眼影粉用眼影棒按压在上眼睑的位置，稍稍比眼睑宽一点儿就可以了。

3、用最浅色的眉粉修饰眼睛的轮廓，由眉头起顺着鼻梁和眼影边际轻刷。

4、夹翘睫毛后，重复刷上睫毛膏，制造卷翘和浓密的效果。

5、在上眼睑的内侧，细细地画一条内眼线。轻轻拉眼角，一点一点地描绘。

6、再以较深的藕荷色眼影画在下眼睑，顺着眼睑的弧度一直刷到上眼尾处，加大眼形。

妆容搭配：

1、粉嫩双颊衬托明亮双眼。在轻柔、透明的底妆上涂抹粉红色的腮红，透明妆效让双眼更有神。

2、淡淡唇彩显现优雅感。选择唇彩而不是唇膏化唇妆，唇彩的闪亮光泽和色彩饱满度让整个妆容优雅而不失活泼。

美目绝招睫毛上动手脚

1、假睫毛是秘密武器。许多明星都有让小眼睛变大的妙招，假睫毛无一例外是她们的最爱。选择假睫毛的时候，根部越软越好，贴上后再以小剪刀略修出自然的长度就可以了。

2、不爱用假睫毛，就要在睫毛上多动些手脚：

a、夹睫毛要反常理而行：以最外梢、再中间、最后根部的顺序分段式夹睫毛，避免因为先夹根部造成的无法挽回的大角度，让睫毛自然卷翘。

b、用专用夹外眼角的睫毛夹夹外眼角睫毛，使眼睛的范围看起来更大。

c、以Z字形的方式涂睫毛膏，每隔10秒涂一次，一共涂3次。注意外眼角睫毛要多刷几次，让它更明显。

Original Article from this website

Eye make up for Double Inner Lids Eye

2008-08-18T14:35:00.004-05:00

内双眼美眉的化妆技巧

来源：中华新闻网

　　建议内双眼美人眼部妆容：浓郁的异域色彩+恰到好处的睫毛浓密度就等于神秘的异域情调。

　　内双眼皮的美人属于耐看类型，她们通常不属于标准的美女，但是内双的眼睛较耐人寻味，有让人一探究竟的冲动。想将内双眼描画得美丽可不简单，基于内双眼的特性，通过塑造成熟的大眼睛，将眼睛定位在神秘性感的主题上。

　　1、性感味道的女生适合选用棕色系的眼影，眼睑处深，眼窝处浅些

　　2、在下眼睑处涂抹相同的眼影色，调整眼影色的深浅

　　3、紧贴着睫毛根部，用眼线笔填涂上眼睑的睫毛空隙，要描画均匀

　　4、用粉扑固定，防止手抖。然后使用眼线液叠画一层在眼线上

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　　5、先刷睫毛梢，再从睫毛根向上刷。睫毛根处浓，睫毛梢一笔带过

　　6、检查眼线，用眼线笔补画欠缺的地方，使眼线描画得更加圆润

　　7、画下眼线时，只画眼尾和眼角的部分，中间的地方要保留

　　8、在下睫毛中间部分涂刷睫毛膏，在眼尾处涂抹略比眼影色深的颜色

编辑：Candy

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*This article does not belong to me and i'm just posting it here as a collection of my own research material while sharing it with others who share the same fate [cough eyes] as i do *

The many types of Asian Eyes

2008-08-18T13:51:00.010-05:00

I think my eye should be categorized under this one 丹凤眼 :P

The most alluring eyes among all :P

Then again, the tip of my eyes did not slant high enough, so i'd say that i'm categorized under standard eyes 标准眼 as well. :(

I guess it should be called 内双眼 Inner double eye lids

What do you think? What's your eye type?

-my eye-

**Original thread from Baidu

How to spend my Semester Break

2008-08-16T15:02:00.004-05:00

(1) Play around with eye make up. Learn how to draw eyeliner properly.

(2) Sew myself a complete set of han clothing.

(3) Slim myself down by doing some household chores. Ate too much peanut butter during exam period.

(4) Get more pictures, any random shots will do.

(5) Screw my brother's bed time. Steal his pillow away when he's really tired. Make him as irritable as a grizzly bear :D [Who ask him to tease me 24/7]

(6) Help my mum to dye her hair brown [Checked]

(7) Read more english books instead of fan fictioning

(8) Make a small little charlie bag from burdastyle.com

That's all for now :) I have a feeling that the list will go on forever and that it never stays the same

Bon Odori 2008

2008-08-16T06:52:00.004-05:00

Yeah i know, it's a little bit too late to post anything regarding this festival. It's a little hard to get pictures from someone else's camera. You need your own camera if you want pictures fast.

Stole all these pictures from my friend's facebook album haha :P

Hua Mei -- Esther Yew -- Me

Hua Mei -- Me -- Bamboo Pig

Me -- LHY

Hua Mei -- Q Sze Min -- LHY -- Mei Yee -- Me

Esther -- Me

LHY -- Cute Gal in kimono-- Q Sze Min -- Esther -- MeMe -- Esther -- Sze Min -- LHY -- Bon Odori Fan

Me -- Esther -- Sharing a drink

Me -- Holding California RollMe -- Eating like a pig

Make Up

2008-08-15T11:53:00.013-05:00

I used to think that wearing make up on my face is a really silly gesture. I was a girl who despised wearing make up. I once proclaimed that i'd never use any make up on my face. However, this particular girl has long been vanished from my personality. I like to make myself look pretty, and i think that it's time for me to learn the powerful art, to enhance my not so gifted features.

Today, i had finally harboured enough courage to walk up to one of the cosmetics counters in Mid Valley Jaya Jusco. With the help of my mother, i tried on various types of eye liner.

First, the liquid eye liner. It looks good, with firm, solid lines but it irritates my eyes because half of my eye lids are in fold, as in the upper and inner lids stack together. I could feel something solid in between my eye lids and it's uncomfortable.

Next come the basic pencil eye liner. There's no such thing as waterproof pencil eye liner (maybe there is, so don't flame me) and the usual pencil eye liner smudges quite easily. Since my eye lids stack together, the eye liner could easily stick to the upper eye lids, therefore creating an unnecessary line on my eye lids. I don't know how to explain it well.

The Maybelline sales girl gave me recommendation on a type of waterproof gel eye liner, and boy did it work well with my troublesome eye lids. It's a little pricey though, probably 3 times higher than your everyday eyeliner. It's RM70 for a 3g eyeliner, and the price of the brush is even more scary. RM80 for an eyeliner brush!! The brand is Bobbi Brown.

After a quick research on the internet, it's no wonder why it's so pricey in the first place. I bought the Espresso Ink [Dark Brown].

Recently Awarded: "Elle" ‘Genius Award’ (April 2008), "In Style" 'Best Beauty Buy' (2008), and "Allure" ‘Reader's Choice Award’ (2008). Our popular long-wearing eyeliner offers the precision of liquid liner and the ease of a gel-based formula. This Fall, try water-resistant Long-Wear Gel Eyeliner in NEW Black Mauve Shimmer Ink, a black mauve infused with bronze and gold pearl pigments.

0.1 oz./ 3 g

And, for the brush. . .

"Allure" Best of Beauty Eyeliner Brush Award Winner (2007). Featured in "In Style Fall Makeover" issue (2008). Easy to hold and control, this slim, tapered Ultra Fine Eyeliner Brush creates a flawless line. The brush hairs are finely pointed and tightly packed for precise application.

Now, i'm totally speechless.

I also got myself a white pencil eye liner [Maybelline Unstoppable], i didn't test on it, but i don't think there'll be any trouble with the bottom, inner eye lid.

Dreams [Shi wai tao yuan]

2008-08-14T01:49:00.006-05:00

They say that dream reflect what your heart truely desires, they also mentioned that dreams are a biological thing that your brain shows you when it's trying to sort out the memory for permanent storage.

What i dreamt about this morning, i believe, is a reflect on things that i've seen lately and things that i'd really wanted to do.

I remember that i was walking around town, out of my home, along a road that i've never used before. As i walk, i saw something surprising that catches my eyes. I saw a row of korean traditional clothing, some of them half done. The top is red in color, the ribbon dark red, and the bottom part (can't remember the color, but i believe it was blue). I also saw han clothing hanging at the gates. I was awed and as i was wondering who taylored all these clothing, i heard someone bickering about kebaya. They said that kebaya[wore by nyonya from the book i read] is an art going to extinction within 70 years (I did not know that my mind is capable of making up facts) because it takes time to make a kebaya and there are no apprentice to learn the exquisitive sewing skill.

I continued walking and i saw a row of pillow case, made from materials imported from china. It has got chinese word sewn on it as well as some pictures that screams the word traditional, beautiful and expensive.

At the end of the road, i saw the lady who was frantically mumbling about something that i couldn't quite catch. A lady clad in japanese kimono saw me and i gladly went to her, i can't remember what happened afterwards but i was introduced to her husband, a white man [this reminded me of bon odori... a white guy with a japanese wife] and i bowed to him slightly, without knowing how i should greet people in a japanese fashion.

I glanced at the exterior of the house, wanting to take a picture to show the whole world the evidence of such a beautiful place that i have randomly stumbled upon. I asked them if they'd accept me to be an apprentice since i love the many sewing on a kebaya and they did mention about the extinction part earlier. I was denied i guess, or i was completely ignored. I couldn't remember.

I was sent home in a ship, olden days ship and as i walk to the port, i was crying and mumbling about why they'd deny me the chance. They heard me and asked me to repeat my words. I told them that i love the traditions and that's where i woke up.

This is all pretty weird, how could i be sent home in a ship when i walked there in the first place?

A new look to my blog =)

2008-08-13T15:01:00.002-05:00

I'm tired of the old template, so i took the time to change the template and rearrage some links in my blog. I think that it looks much better compare to my last one. HAH, at least chew will be happy that i won't spoil his eyes anymore :D

Thoughts on Inti AUP 3rd Semester

2008-08-13T13:33:00.004-05:00

I've not been acting like myself throughout this semester. I've been slacking more so than usual, and i've been piling up mountains of homework without feeling much guilt on my side. I don't feel the usual rush of nervousness, i don't feel depressed for the right reasons, i don't feel pressured enough to force myself into the tedious task of learning and memorizing.

Throughout the whole semester, i've been feeling quite depressed. Often, i could feel myself on the verge of frustration, yet i do not seem to know what makes me feel so. I wonder if i had wanted to cry to release myself from some unknown depression, but i could never feel the tears coming. I thought that i had wanted to get away from Inti, from all the mess. I did that every fortnight, running back home eagerly, trying to get myself focus next week, but that never really worked. I'd play and shop and do anything random at home but at the end of the week, i'd still feel the same. I'm reluctant to study and i'm more than willing to do anything else other than academic work. My brain is seriously screwed and yet i have no where to turn to. This is a personal issue and i know that no one other than myself will be able to fix the problem.

I can't complain it to my mum because she wouldn't understand it. How can i expect someone else to help me, if i don't even understand why i'm feeling like i'm going nuts myself. I didn't take a lot of subjects, yet i feel like i always have something hanging on my shoulder waiting to be done. I wanted to follow my schedule and try to read up before lectures/ after lectures but things didn't really go that way. I don't know what went wrong, but i do know that i didn't feel like studying. Not even before test 1, mid-term, test 2, quiz and even Final. I still don't. I wonder what's wrong with me. I can't shake some sense into me no matter what because i relied too much upon stress to make myself study. I'm used to worry myself soo much that i couldn't fall asleep at night if i didn't finish off the syllabus the night before on tomorrow's test. Right now, i couldn't find that stress anymore within my jumbled up feelings.

US history. I always feel very exhausted after each US history test because i take at least a minimum of 5 hours to finish reading/scanning through a chapter. I couldn't remember a single thing after that because i was just reading it. I didn't memorize it. I wonder how much time it'd take for me to finish up a chapter if i were to memorize every single thing in the book. Much like what i used to do during secondary school. Cramming everything into my brain, absorbing it like any good sponge will do and squeeze it all out until it run dry during exams.

It is because of this exhaustion that i feel myself reluctant to do anything else. I guess my depression just sort of make things go worse.

Yes, i am depressed, or rather i'm always in a pissy mode. I do not know why, but little little things pissed me off to no end. It's scary, and i wonder if i'm having some kind of hormonal imbalance problem or if my supposely teenage rebellious personality has finally caught up on me. This just reminds me that i'm turning 20 in less than half a year :( This is so scary !!!!!!!! I'm feeling OLD.

I guess right now there's no use crying over split milk, pondering over everything that has happened will not do much help. I need a resolution, and i need it fast.

Thoughts on fan fiction

2008-08-13T12:23:00.003-05:00

I love reading fan fiction. It's my daily ritual to check my mail box for any alerts on fiction updates. I pick up this habit 2 years back, and right now, after giving it much thought, i think that i should move on with books that are properly published and written.

Fan fictions are stories written by random fans on a certain anime/cartoon/book. In a way, it's nice to read because you can always read a continuation from a book that you love. Some of the authors are creative and there are always a few fictions scattered around that is really worth reading. However, most of them contained numerous grammer/spelling errors. The authors are great, really great, but most of them are just secondary school students. They are not professional writers. Therefore, i don't really blame them for their work. I appreciate it, but i do realize that i should not continue reading it.

I notice that i can't spell properly nowadays, i suspect that it's a direct effect from reading too much fan fictions. I'll just end up spelling like what they did in their articles.

Next, i do realise that i'm much snappish nowadays. I wonder if that has got something to do with the fact that i always read stories with rude remarks, sarcastic retorts, and bitchy lines. Does reading something -ve makes your personality more -ve?

One of the reason that i got so addicted into fiction is because it's my getaway from the real life. I'm living in a virtual storyline instead of my own life. I enjoy reading it because i love to live in an environment like that, knowing much of the drama but not actually feeling remorse/hurt while dealing with all those episodes. It is addictive because my life, in my opinion, is a little too dull for any sane person to live in. I fullfil my own desire to be witty/rude/naughty/stupid/bitchy from those stories. It's hard to explain.

I was not able to enjoy any story book last time because it's not something that i'd ever do before knowing fan fiction. I don't buy any books and i don't check out any books from the library. I am never a book person and i regretted not doing so in the past. I realize that my English during my secondary school years was in a stagnant. I've been writing the same piece of essay with primary school english. My vocabulary was limited, very limited and my english was simple.

Thanks to fiction, my english has improved, albeit not that good, but i'm able to enjoy reading novels nowadays and i plan to do just that. I'll read stories from a book instead of some free lance writing.

Breaking Dawn

2008-08-07T11:44:00.002-05:00

Right, the highly anticipated novel of the year [for me], actually makes me feel sick and dizzy enough to run out of my room like a mad woman and hurried to the disgusting toilet to get my dinner out through the esophagus. OMG!!!!

I thought that this was supposed to be young adult fiction. How can there be such disturbing/gruesome details in it? OMG!!!! In a way, i have to congratulate her for being able to get such reaction from my stomach. This just shows that her story is too damn realistic. [Aint being sarcastic here, i'm just trying to tell you all that it's not a good idea to create such a detailed image in your head while reading novels, especially when this is the crucial time of the year where you ain't allowed to fall sick]

And i had to be an idiot to read it the on night before my final. OMG, now my head is still spinning, albeit not as bad as how it was just now. I could feel my body heat running low and my head was spinning so badly that i could hardly walk in a straight line without much effort just now. I have to thank the management for the table at the pantry area. A good place for me to rest my head for a few seconds, trying to keep the liquid down before deciding that it's not doing me much good and headed for the toilet bowl the second time.

I don't know what to blame on right now, the VIVID description of the storyline [ you have to find out from me if you want to know what it's about]

(sry for all the profanities inserted in this post, i just had to make this post now when my stomach has yet to settle down, it's something worth recording on my daily life)

World of Warcraft

2008-08-02T14:53:00.005-05:00

Hello guys. If you've been wondering for weeks on my whereabouts, then this post will most likely tell you that i'm not dead, still pretty much alive if you ask me.
However, i've been emoing for all the wrong reasons lately and i do not know how to fix my rollercoaster emotions. I resort to doing all the nonsense rather than crawling back to my life but who cares, no big deal, i want more .
So, this is what i've been doing two days straight -- playing Wow like nobody's business. I took some screenshot during the game and here it is.

Casting Spells

Beautiful Sunset, in WoW. Realistic isn't it?

A walking tree

My teddy bear form -- i'm a DRUID afterall

On the ship deck

Trust me, fishing in Wow is just as boring as how it is in real life. You gotta be patient.

Second sun set picture, at the beach

Probably the cutest creature i've seen in Wow, Turtly

My character.

Battle scene. Forget about that ugly bird.

Ridding on a bird. Forget what the name is.

The Little Mermaid Videos & Lyrics

2008-07-26T02:53:00.003-05:00

Under The Sea

Ariel, listen to me
The human world, is a mess
Life under the sea is better than anything they've got up there

The seaweed is always greener
In somebody else's lake
You dream about going up there
But that is a big mistake
Just look at the world around you
Right here on the ocean floor
Such wonderful things surround you
What more are you looking for

Under the sea
Under the sea
Darling it's better
Down where it's wetter
Take it from me
Up on the shore they work all day
Out in the sun they slave away
While we're devotin'
Full time to floatin'
Under the sea

Down here all the fish is happy
As off through the waves they roll
The fish on the land ain't happy
They sad 'cause they in the bowl
But fish in the bowl is lucky
They in for a worser fate
One day when the boss get hungry
Guess who's goin' be on the plate
Oh no!

Under the sea
Under the sea
Nobody beat us
Fry us and eat us
In fricassee
We what the land folks love to cook
Under the sea we off the hook
We got no troubles
Life is the bubbles
Under the sea
Under the sea

Since life is sweet here
We got to be here
Naturally
Even the esturgeon and the ray
They get the urge and start to play
We got the spirit
You got to hear it
Under the sea

The lewt play the flute
The carp play the harp
The plaice pay the bass
And they soundin' sharp
The bass play the brass
The chub play the tub
The fluke is the duke of soul
The ray he can play
The lings on the strings
The trout rockin' out
The blackfish she sings
The smelt and the sprat
You know where it's at
And oh that blowfish blow

Under the sea
Under the sea
When the sardine
Begin the beguine
It's music to me
What do they got a lot of sand
We got a hot crustacean band

Each little clam here know how to jam here
Under the sea
Each little slug here cuttin' a rug here
Under the sea
Each little snail here know how to wail here
That's why it's hotter under the water
Yeah we in luck here
Down in the muck here
Under the sea

Part Of Your World

Look at this stuff
Isn't it neat?
Wouldn't ya think my collection's complete?
Wouldn't ya think I'm the girl
The girl who has everything?

Look at this trove
Treasures untold
How many wonders can one cavern hold?
Lookin' around here you think
Sure, she's got everything

I've got gadgets and gizmos aplenty
I've got whosits and whatsits galore
You want thingamabobs?
I got twenty
But who cares?
No big deal
I want more

I wanna be where the people are
I wanna see
Wanna see 'em dancin'
Walkin' around on those
(Whad'you call 'em?) oh - feet
Flippin' your fins you don't get too far
Legs are required for jumpin', dancin'
Strollin' along down a
(What's that word again?) street

Up where they walk
Up where they run
Up where they stay all day in the sun
Wanderin' free
Wish I could be
Part of that world

What would I give
If I could live
Outta these waters?
What would I pay
To spend a day
Warm on the sand?

Betcha on land
They understand
Bet they don't reprimand their daughters
Bright young women
Sick o' swimmin'
Ready to stand

And ready to know what the people know
Ask 'em my questions
And get some answers
What's a fire and why does it
(What's the word?) burn?

When's it my turn?
Wouldn't I love
Love to explore that shore up above?
Out of the sea
Wish I could be
Part of that world

The lost tradition -- Han Fu

2008-07-23T05:52:00.009-05:00

There, there everyone. If i ask you what you'd wear during chinese new year, you'd probably have the word 'cheongsam /samfu/ something red' on your mind. Don't ask me why i mention CNY of all festivals. I know that it's the only festival that i dress up as a chinese instead of the casual wear that we can find everywhere on earth.

The things is, we don't really have to stick with the tradition of wearing cheongsam just because our primary school teacher teached us to write 'cheongsam' in our 4 lines CNY essay. We can always opt for something that's even more traditional than cheongsam. It'd look more elegant in fact and you'd be the spotlight of every single pair of eyes :D.

Ladies and gentleman, i'm going to introduce you to clothings that we always see in the 'mirror mirror on the wall' aka TV[Sry, just watched enchanted.., the prince is seriously funny] but have never thought of wearing.

These pictures are from http://www.77dannya.com/
The website is selling all these clothes ^^

I'm broke, or soon to be broke and i most certainly can't afford to buy one of these hehe. Instead of buying one, i'd probably just make one myself. Who knows how it'll turn out to be :D

Anyways, back to the topic. China's been trying to revive the culture of wearing Han Clothing lately give it a year or two. Wearing Han Wedding Clothes instead of the normal white wedding gowns is a new trend in China. There are many different version of Han Clothing simply because any clothes existed in china empires before the Qing Dynasty is categorized under Han Fu [Han Clothing]. Just like fashion, the clothes has similar attributes but varies from time to time or rather from dynasty to dynasty.

Qing Dynasty is a dynasty that many Hans detested. Han people were forced to discard their culture and adapt to the Qing's culture or face death. This is one of the many reasons why there were so many internal fights during Qing dynasty. The Qings were a group of viscious people. A majority of china population today are descendents of Han. Some are interested/passionate enough to want to preserve the culture despite the fact that it's been lost for a few centuries, and that includesssssssssss me. I'm just genuinely in love with Han Fu. Oh, and bear in mind, don't call it traditional clothes, call it Han Fu. They don't like to make it sound like it's something in the past and that we don't wear it anymore . . .?

PS: I saw people using Han Fu which in direct translation means Han Clothing [Han is the name of a dynasty, but we refer it to a major race in China in this context] in youtube videos

The Pocahontas Myth

2008-07-21T09:25:00.004-05:00

Sigh, as always, disney never create animation with accurate historical facts. Worse still, they tend to bend the story into a romantic, heroic fantasy as they saw fit.

Today, i briefly googled out some real facts on pocahontas and here there are:
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In 1995, Roy Disney decided to release an animated movie about a Powhatan woman known as "Pocahontas". In answer to a complaint by the Powhatan Nation, he claims the film is "responsible, accurate, and respectful."

We of the Powhatan Nation disagree. The film distorts history beyond recognition. Our offers to assist Disney with cultural and historical accuracy were rejected. Our efforts urging him to reconsider his misguided mission were spurred.

"Pocahontas" was a nickname, meaning "the naughty one" or "spoiled child". Her real name was Matoaka. The legend is that she saved a heroic John Smith from being clubbed to death by her father in 1607 - she would have been about 10 or 11 at the time. The truth is that Smith's fellow colonists described him as an abrasive, ambitious, self-promoting mercenary soldier.

Of all of Powhatan's children, only "Pocahontas" is known, primarily because she became the hero of Euro-Americans as the "good Indian", one who saved the life of a white man. Not only is the "good Indian/bad Indian theme" inevitably given new life by Disney, but the history, as recorded by the English themselves, is badly falsified in the name of "entertainment".

The truth of the matter is that the first time John Smith told the story about this rescue was 17 years after it happened, and it was but one of three reported by the pretentious Smith that he was saved from death by a prominent woman.

Yet in an account Smith wrote after his winter stay with Powhatan's people, he never mentioned such an incident. In fact, the starving adventurer reported he had been kept comfortable and treated in a friendly fashion as an honored guest of Powhatan and Powhatan's brothers. Most scholars think the "Pocahontas incident" would have been highly unlikely, especially since it was part of a longer account used as justification to wage war on Powhatan's Nation.

Euro-Americans must ask themselves why it has been so important to elevate Smith's fibbing to status as a national myth worthy of being recycled again by Disney. Disney even improves upon it by changing Pocahontas from a little girl into a young woman.

The true Pocahontas story has a sad ending. In 1612, at the age of 17, Pocahontas was treacherously taken prisoner by the English while she was on a social visit, and was held hostage at Jamestown for over a year.

During her captivity, a 28-year-old widower named John Rolfe took a "special interest" in the attractive young prisoner. As a condition of her release, she agreed to marry Rolfe, who the world can thank for commercializing tobacco. Thus, in April 1614, Matoaka, also known as "Pocahontas", daughter of Chief Powhatan, became "Rebecca Rolfe". Shortly after, they had a son, whom they named Thomas Rolfe. The descendants of Pocahontas and John Rolfe were known as the "Red Rolfes."

Two years later on the spring of 1616, Rolfe took her to England where the Virginia Company of London used her in their propaganda campaign to support the colony. She was wined and dined and taken to theaters. It was recorded that on one occasion when she encountered John Smith (who was also in London at the time), she was so furious with him that she turned her back to him, hid her face, and went off by herself for several hours. Later, in a second encounter, she called him a liar and showed him the door.

Rolfe, his young wife, and their son set off for Virginia in March of 1617, but "Rebecca" had to be taken off the ship at Gravesend. She died there on March 21, 1617, at the age of 21. She was buried at Gravesend, but the grave was destroyed in a reconstruction of the church. It was only after her death and her fame in London society that Smith found it convenient to invent the yarn that she had rescued him.

History tells the rest. Chief Powhatan died the following spring of 1618. The people of Smith and Rolfe turned upon the people who had shared their resources with them and had shown them friendship. During Pocahontas' generation, Powhatan's people were decimated and dispersed and their lands were taken over. A clear pattern had been set which would soon spread across the American continent.

source: http://www.powhatan.org/pocc.html
DD: 21/07/08
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I wonder how such a sad real life story could be twisted into something so entirely different.

Anastasia Lyrics and Videos

2008-07-20T09:49:00.004-05:00

Note** Anastasia is created by Disney & fox. Not a lot of people are familiar with this cartoon, but it's still a great cartoon no less. Enjoy!
At the Beginning

(Anastasia) We were strangers,
starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
what we’d have to go through
Now here we are,
and I’m suddenly standing,
at the beginning with you

(Dimitri) No one told me
I was going to find you,
Unexpected
what you did to my heart,
(BOTH) When I lost hope
you were there to remind me
this is the start

(Chorus) And life is a road
and I wanna to keep going
love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
life is a road
now and forever
wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
in the end I wanna be standing
at the beginning with you

(Anastasia) We were strangers
on a crazy adventure
(Dimitri) Never dreaming
how our dreams would come true
(Both) Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

(Chorus)

(Both) I knew there was somebody somewhere
that made love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
Ive been waiting so long
Nothings gonna tear us apart

(Chorus)

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on
Starting out on a journey

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
at the beginning with you

Once Upon A December

Dancing bears,
Painted wings,
Things I almost remember,
And a song someone sings,ahh-ah-ah
Once upon a December

Someone holds me,
Safe and warm,
Horses prance through a silver storm,
Figures dancing gracefully,
Across my memory....

Far away, long ago,
Glowing dim as an ember
Things my heart used to know
Once Upon A December

Vocalizing

Someone holds me
Safe and warm,
Horses prance through a silver storm,
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory.....

Far away, long ago,
Glowing dim as an ember
Things my heart used to know
Things it yearns to remember

And a song
Someone sings ah-ah-ah
Once upon a December

Pocahontas Lyrics and Videos

2008-07-20T03:53:00.008-05:00

Colors of the Wind

You think I'm an ignorant savage
And you've been so many places
I guess it must be so
But still I cannot see
If the savage one is me
How can there be so much that you don't know?
You don't know ...

You think you own whatever land you land on
The earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know every rock and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name

You think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger
You learn things you never knew you never knew

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountains
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind

Come run the hidden pine trails of the forrest
Come taste the sunsweet berries of the earth
Come roll in all the riches all around you
And for once never wonder what they're worth

The rainstorm and the river are my brothers
The heron and the otter are my friends
And we are all connected to each other
In a circle, in a hoop that never ends

How high will the sycamore grow
If you cut it down, then you'll never know
And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
For wether we are white or copper skinned
We need to sing with all the voices of the mountains
We need to paint with all the colors of the wind

You can own the earth and still
All you'll own is earth until
You can paint with all the colors of the wind

Steady as the Beating Drum

Hega hega ya-hi-ye-hega
Ya-hi-ye-ne-he hega
Hega hega ya-hi-ye-hega
Ya-hi-ye-ne-he hega

Steady as the beating drum
Singing to the cedar flute
Seasons go and seasons come
Bring the corn and bear the fruit

By the waters sweet and clean
Where the mighty sturgeon lives
Plant the squash and reap the bean
All the earth our mother gives

O Great Spirit, hear our song
Help us keep the ancient ways
Keep the sacred fire strong
Walk in balance all our days

Seasons go and seasons come
Steady as the beating drum
Plum to seed to bud to plum

(Hega hega ya-hi-ye hega)
Steady as the beating drum
Hega hega ya-hi-ye-hega
Ya-hi-ye-ne-he hega

Savages

What can you expect
From filthy little heathens?
Here's what you get when races are divers
Their skins are hellish red
They're only good when dead
They're vermin, as I said
And worse

They're savages! Savages!
Barely even human
Savages! Savages!
Drive them from our shore!
They're not like you and me Which means they must be evil
We must sound the drums of war!
They're savages! Savages!
Dirty shrieking devils!
Now we sound the drums of war!

This is what we feared
The paleface is a demon
The only thing they feel at all is greed
Beneath that milky hide
There's emptiness inside
I wonder if they even bleed

They're savages! Savages!
Barely even human
Savages! Savages!
Killers at the core
They're different from us
Which means they can't be trusted
We must sound the drums of war
They're savages! Savages!
First we deal with this one
Then we sound the drums of war

Savages! Savages!
Let's get a few, men!
Savages! Savages!
Now it's up to you, men!
Savages! Savages!
Barely even human!
Now we sound the drums of war!
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This will be the day
Let's go men!
This will be the morning
We will see them dying in the dust
I don't know what I can do
Still I know I've got to try
(Now we make 'em pay)
Eagle, help my feet to fly
(Now without a warning)
Mountain, help my heart be great
(Now we leave 'em blood and bone and dust)
Spirits of the earth and sky
(It's them or us)
Please don't let it be too late
(They're just a bunch of filthy, stinking savages)

Savages! Savages!
Demon
Devil
Savages! Savages!
What are we waiting for
Destroy their evil race until there's not a trace left
We will sound the drums of war
(How loud are the drums of war)
Now we sound the drums of war

Now we see what comes of trying to be chums
Now we sound the drums of...
(Is the death of all I love carried in the drumming of...
War!

Just Around the River Bend

What I love most about rivers is
You can't step in the same river twice
The water's always changing, always flowing
But people, I guess, can't live like that
We all must pay a price
To be safe, we lose our chance of ever knowing
What's around the riverbend
Waiting just around the riverbend

I look once more
Just around the riverbend
Beyond the shore
Where the gulls fly free
Don't know what for
What I dream the day might send
Just around the riverbend
For me
Coming for me

I feel it there beyond those trees
Or right behind these waterfalls
Can I ignore that sound of distant drumming
For a handsome sturdy husband
Who builds handsome sturdy walls
And never dreams that something might be coming?
Just around the riverbend
Just around the riverbend

I look once more
Just around the riverbend
Beyond the shore
Somewhere past the sea
Don't know what for
Why do all my dreams extend
Just around the riverbend?
Just around the riverbend

Should I choose the smoothest course
Steady as the beating drum?
Should I marry Kocoum?
Is all my dreaming at an end?
Or do you still wait for me, Dream Giver
Just around the riverbend?

Mulan Lyrics and Videos

2008-07-20T03:21:00.008-05:00

Reflection

Look at me
I will never pass for a perfect bride
Or a perfect daughter
Can it be
I'm not meant to play this part?
Now I see
That if I were truly to be myself
I would break my family's heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Somehow I cannot hide who I am, though I've tried
When will my reflection show who I am inside?
When will my reflection show who I am inside?

Make a man out of you

Let's get down to business
To defeat the Huns
Did they send me daughters when I asked for sons?
You're the saddest bunch I ever met
But you can bet before we're through
Mister, I'll make a man out of you

Tranquil as a forest
But on fire within
Once you find your center
You are sure to win
You're a spineless, pale, pathetic lot
And you haven't got a clue
Somehow I'll make a man out of you

I'm never gonna catch my breath
Say goodbye to those who knew me
Boy, was I a fool in school for cutting gym
This guy's got 'em scared to death
Hope he doesn't see right through me
Now I really wish that I knew how to swim

(Chorus:)
Be a man
We must be swift as a coursing river
Be a man
With all the force of a great typhoon
Be a man
With all the strength of a raging fire
Mysterious as the dark side of the moon

Time is racing toward us till the Huns arrive
Heed my every order and you might survive
You're unsuited for the rage of war
So pack up, go home you're through
How could I make a man out of you?
(repeat chorus)
(repeat chorus)

A Girl Worth Fighting For

For a long time we've been marching off to battle
In our thundering herd we feel a lot like cattle
Like the pounding beat our aching feet aren't easy to ignore
Hey! Think of instead a girl worth fighting for
Huh?
That's what I said
A girl worth fighting for

I want her paler than the moon with eyes that shine like stars
My girl will marvel at my strength, adore my battle scars
I couldn't care less what she'll wear or what she looks like
It all depends on what she cooks like: Beef, pork, chicken
Mmmh

Bet the local girls thought you were quite the charmer
And I'll bet the ladies love a man in armor
You can guess what we have missed the most
Since we went off to war
What do we want?
A girl worth fighting for

My girl will think I have no faults
That I'm a major find
How 'bout a girl who's got a brain
Who always speaks her mind?
Nah!
My manly ways and turn of phrase are sure to thrill her
He thinks he's such a lady-killer

I've a girl back home who's unlike any other
Yeah, the only girl who'd love him is his mother
But when we come home in victory they'll line up at the door
What do we want?
A girl worth fighting for
Wish that I had
A girl worth fighting for

Honor to us all

This is what you give me to work with?
Well, honey, I've seen worse
We are gonna turn this sow's ear
Into a silk purse
We'll have you
Washed and dried
Primped and polished till you glow with pride
Trust my recipe for instant bride
You'll bring honor to us all

Wait and see
When we're through
Boys will gladly go to war for you
With good fortune and a great hairdo
You'll bring honor to us all

A girl can bring her family
Great honor in one way
By striking a good match
And this could be the day

Men want girls with good taste
Calm
Obedient
Who work fast-paced
With good breeding
And a tiny waist
You'll bring honor to us all

We all must serve our emperor
Who guards us from the Huns
A man by bearing arms
A girl by bearing sons

When we're through you can't fail Like a lotus blossom soft and pale
How could any fellow say "No sale"
You'll bring honor to us all

Beads of jade for beauty
You must proudly show it
Now add a cricket just for luck
And even you can't blow it

Ancestors
Hear my plea
Help me not to make a fool of me
And to not uproot my family tree
Keep my father standing tall

Scarier than the undertaker
We are meeting our matchmaker
Destiny
Guard our girls
And our future as it fast unfurls
Please look kindly on these cultured pearls
Each a perfect porcelain doll

Please bring honor to us
Please bring honor to us
Please bring honor to us
Please bring honor to us
Please bring honor to us all

True to Your Heart - Ending Theme Song

Baby, I knew at once that you were meant for me
Deep in my soul, I know that I'm your destiny
Though you're unsure
Why fight the tide
Don't think so much
Let your heart decide

Baby, I see your future, and it's tied to mine
I look in your eyes and see you searching for a sign
But you'll never fall
Till you let go
Don't be so scared
Of what you don't know

True to your heart
You must be true to your heart
That's when the heavens will part
And, baby, shower you with my love
Open your eyes
Your heart can tell you no lies
And when you're true to your heart
I know it's gonna lead you straight to me

Someone ya know is on your side, can set you free
I can do that for you if you believe in me
Why second guess what feels so right?
Just trust your heart
And you'll see the light!

True to your heart

Girl, my heart is driving me to where you are
You can take both hands off the wheel and still get far
Be swept away
Enjoy the ride
You won't get lost
With your heart to guide you

True to your heart
You must be true to your heart
That's when the heavens will part
And, baby, shower you with my love
Open your eyes
Your heart can tell you no lies
And when you're true to your heart
I know it's gonna lead you straight to me

Open your heart
You must be true to your heart
That's when the heavens will part
And, baby, shower you with my love
Open your eyes
Your heart will tell you no lies
And when you're true to your heart
I know it's gonna lead you straight to me
True to your heart

When things are gettin' crazy
And you don't know where to start
Keep on believin', baby
Just be true to your heart
When all the world around you
It seems to fall apart
Keep on believin', baby
Just be true to your heart
True to your heart

Crazed

2008-07-19T14:58:00.014-05:00

Hello everyone, it's been a while since my last post. Life's been boring without a functioning camera and i don't really like to make a post that's void of pictures.

So... what have i been up to again?

I've been obsessed with several things within these few weeks ranging from Night Elf, WoW, cosplay, Han clothings (aka chinese clothings that existed before the Qing Dynasty), sewing pattern, disney classics cartoon MV, how to grow long, healthy hair, how to make ice cream etc etc...

All in all, i'm obsessed with everything else other than my own academic work, aka the reality. And, i'm going to face the immediate consequences from being such a lazy pig in a very near future. Somehow, i still find myself reluctant to study even though i'm starting to get a little worried.

Anyways, i might as well do some compilation work and make my post worth reading for the disney fans.

Links for Food Recipe

2008-06-28T14:11:00.005-05:00

Hey guys, somehow i stumbled upon this wonderful site yesterday after watching several random videos on youtube. It has lots of recipes + videos + great instructions on how to make/cook a lot of dishes. Definitely a site you must go if you live far away from home and are tired/sick of eating take away food.

(1) How to make your own original cheese
(Aha, finally, cheese. We don't just study US history and admire the ladies. We too can make cheese!!)

(2) French Toast

(BTW, i ordered French Toast that look entirely different from the one below in Kim Gary...I wonder if there's just more than one type of French Toast)

(3) Soft Scrambled eggs

(EGGGSSSS....You bet i'll try this one out as soon as i reach home next week)

(4) Pancake

(We've always heard about pancakes, but how does it actually taste like? yummm)

The little spendthrift in disguise

2008-06-28T12:31:00.005-05:00

I started jotting down my expenses this Friday after getting myself a small notebook from inti bookstore. It's sort of a spur of the moment thing but i just have this uncontrollable urge to buy something from the store. I figured that i could do myself a favour by keeping tap on spendings. Afterall, i don't roll around in money. It's about time for me to realize that, not to mention that i have to save some money for my many shopping trips in the future. I can't always swap my brother's credit card and remind him that he still owes me RMXXXX afterwards :D It just doesn't work that way.

BTW, guess how much i've spent in 2 days? RM38.40 !!!! A shocking figure for a girl who thinks that she only spend RM10 perday. A little bit of groceries shopping and picking up snacks here and there could cause great damage to my purse. Currently weeping for my future in the states. I must control my desire to spenddddddd. I should stop taking friend drumstick or taiwan sausage or tuna spread or ...... I should probably start eating more vege. It's more healthy for my diet and purse.

Good news of the day:

(1)Finished 1 chapter of US history, as planned.

(2)My camera phone is working :D, albeit not as good as how it was. What happeneddddddddddddddddd?

-Yesterday -

-Today-

OMGGGGGGGGG!!!!!

btw, this is my new notebook

I killed my camera phone's lenses!!

2008-06-27T01:53:00.005-05:00

Just like any other day, i have a bad tendency to drop my stuff wherever i go. I knocked my external hard disk off the table once, almost destroying the 1 tera baby during the 1st semester.

Even though my phone is the size of the giant monster, it cannot survive the impact from a one meter fall. Though i have to admit, this is not my first time dropping my phone. Sigh... i can't believe that i've smashed the phone's camera lenses of all the places. Say goodbye to my newly acquired sum of money.

This is the last series of pictures that i had taken before i murdered my phone...

It'll be a while before i get to upload any pictures of my daily life =/

My not-so-existant fashion sense

2008-06-26T04:46:00.005-05:00

I have to admit that i don't have many fancy garments, maybe one or two pieces from my recent shopping trips. Even then, I try to dress up nicely on days where i manage to drag myself out of bed early. A few accessories here and there hanging on my neck, ear lopes, or wrists would mean that i had 2 or 3 minutes to spare before sulin come knocking on my door.

There are days where i just don't care about what i'm wearing and it was on a certain monday morning where i was "hounoured" to be the spongeBob. I seriously don't think that i look that hideous but....

Did i satisfy a certain kitty's curiosity here?

Hello peeps !!

2008-06-25T09:02:00.002-05:00

Hi there everyone, i've been long gone. I feel a little guilty for not updating in such a long time but fear not, i promise all my faithful readers [if there's still one] that i'll be back more often.

Basically, what have i done within these few weeks?
(1) Got myself a tutee, currently teaching Calculus 1 for RM5 per hour. I only get to tutor him 2 hours per week. I don't earn big money people.

(2) Dropped one of my subjects -- Discrete Structure. Scored 40 over 100 for the first test... Eeeks... Good news is, i get to sleep in every thursday :D Screw 8 o clock classes!!

(3) Manage to get a post in MAG club. I'm the event planner uhh... Time to get another calander.

(4) Joined chinese orchestra for real this time. I'm picking up flute. I'm just a beginner, and a very noob one.

(5) Changed my bag pack. Sling bag hurts my shoulder and it's definitely not suitable for someone suffering from scoliosis.

(6) Smuggled a few cans of jolly shandy into my room :D

(7)Finally single. I mean in the mental sense. Mind you, i wasn't having an imaginary boy friend.
It's just that things are officially over till the end of time.

(8) Wore a 3 inch high heels to an award presentation. I did not know how i manage to limp back to the hostel.

Caught by Fashion Cops !!

2008-06-09T06:08:00.002-05:00

Someone commented that i look like spongebob today because i was wearing an oversized T shirt to class. It was green in color and i have to admit that it look a little rectangle when i stand up straight.

It was a little funny to have him stare at me like i've worn pajamas and bunny slippers to class. I have to thank him for making my day a better one. God knows that i was feeling gloomy this morning when huge amount of guilt suddenly crashed on my shoulder.

If i had the money and the body, I'd like to wear trendy clothes too.

White man

2008-06-06T15:26:00.004-05:00

Had a heartily chat with mom earlier. She told me that she had met up with her tuition mates[20++ years back] yesterday. A lady named Jenny/Jeannie flew back from Australia. A woman married to a foreign country to a white man. Jenny's husband, X, has been sleeping around with other whores since the first few years of their marriage but she had to keep all the anger to herself due to the fact that she was in a foreign country, and have nothing but her broken marriage. It's even more heart wrenching to know that X even brought his mistress back home in the presence of his wife. X is even bold enough to ask his wife to sleep in the living room while he occupied their bedroom with another slut on their marriage bed. How sad it is, to know that your husband is screwing around with another one right under your nose. I can't imagine how many tears she had shed, trying to ignore the soft moans and whatever disgusting noise from her bastard of a husband and a shameless bitch.

My mum had advised me not to find a white man as a husband because they are never faithful. Though i knew for sure that it's a great myth to think that man would actually stay loyal to a woman, even if she's the wife, the so called the love of his life.

I do not want to stereotype but let's just say that it would hurt less to know in advance what you are or might be getting yourself into. True, i do not trust them to be truthful to me, and i know that i'll let them get away with it as long as they know who to return to in the end of the whole affair. How foolish i am. No woman should allow that to happen to herself but i know my soft spot, and i know how soft hearted i could be when it comes to relationships.

Anyways, enough of my pathetic and negative views on relationships. I should know for a fact that white people do not know how to stick to their commitment on love. I should know.

p.S: My friend's going to be a father to a child and a husband to his wife :) Congratulations :)

Sick!!

2008-06-06T08:01:00.002-05:00

I guess it's just finally the time for me to get sick in Inti. Sigh, having a stomachache (diarrhea) + period together is absolutely horrible. I can't stop visiting the bathroom every few minutes to "pee" and to scrub my already swollen / raw butt. It's rather painful >_<....

Despite the fact that i believe that i might lose some weight when i'm sick, i really don't feel like getting too familiar with the toilet bowl. But i'm glad that i'm at home right now. I could really appreciate a hygienic bathroom now that my stomach is so upset with me. Hostel toilet are just.. coughz.. you know what i mean.

Flunk my Us history test early today[or rather, yesterday since it's over midnight]. I could have blamed it on my sickness but that's just plain cheap and foolish sigh...

Maths

2008-06-03T14:43:00.002-05:00

It makes me feel irritated and totally frustrated at myself when i realize that i've forgotten trivial important properties, theorem etc that i've learned in the past. It kills me to realize that i need to dig out my secondary school text book and read up on those that i can barely retrieve from the banks of my memory. But seriously, how can i not remember what's (SAS, AAS, RHS) for? I do not remember whether it's a way to prove that two triangles are similar or equivalent. This is unacceptable!!!

Calculus and Analytical Geometry... It seems like the analytical geometry part of this subject will make me a step closer to being a white-haired-female-demon. More hardwork and brain power is needed. Even then, chances of not solving the questions is high. I can smell the disaster that's coming from a distance. What will happen to me?

Dumplings :-D

2008-06-01T03:07:00.004-05:00

I made these last weekend at home :-D They look fabulous and tasted even better for a rumbling stomach. Anyways, i took these photos myself and here they are :)

I know that i can't cook but i do know how to prepare food that doesn't involve fire in the kitchen :D

Nails

2008-05-30T06:50:00.006-05:00

I'm back for some girly stuff to talk about.

Nails manicure.

I never knew that people dislike black color that much until i painted it on my nails. I mean black is a must to have in everyone's wardrobe. It's the universal color. So what makes it so unacceptable to put black instead?

People gave me a few negative feedbacks within a day, some are even from random people that i do not know. He suggested me silver but I just shrugged and told him that black makes me look evil. And so.. why did i even remove it on that night? Ugh...and to think that it took me so much time and effort to get it right. Right now, i'm wearing silver & purple, but i'm definitely going to paint it black again soon. Despite everything, I really like black.

Annoying "facts" :
You won't believe how many times your nails got in contact with any surface within a day until you try to leave your freshly painted nails dry while trying to make notes.

Why am i torturing myself by changing nail colors daily? Something must be wrong with my sanity.

Calculus 3 Presentation

2008-05-22T03:35:00.004-05:00

I am relieved that my calculus 3 presentation is over today. It went well. People understood what i wanted to present, therefore i consider myself fairly successful today :-) People love the 3d diagram i drew :-), even though some of them was wondering why the circle look a little cacat.

Hehe, this time, i woke up 10 minutes earlier to put my hair up nicely :-) Pins work fantastic to cover up places where strands of hair were sticking out of place :D

This is the picture that i took today with Sulin as the calculus 3 group 1 member :-D Kudos to the both of us :D

p.s... I know that my left eye was a little swollen today...

waste food

2008-05-20T07:55:00.000-05:00

The world without a fridge is plainly awful and scary. Food turns sour the next morning, or in some cases, within a few hours if we don't find ways to preserve it. It always makes me feel sinful whenever i'm throwing away left overs or untouched food that i couldn't manage to stuff into my poor stomach before it turns bad. I've tried to tell my mum numerous time not to give me any tomatoes or apples or oranges or any food for that matter but she likes to make it her job to make sure that i'm well fed. However, she seems to over look the fact that i don't have a fridge here in inti. She's pretty concerned over my constipation problem, which is probably why she likes to stuff fruits into my bag even though i don't really find myself eating them. Most of the time, they went into the rubbish bin, or i just end up taking it back home again after a few week's time. I'm always eating food that's been left in an air conditioned room overnight and it doesn't really taste as good as how i remembered it. In some other time, i'm always eating food that turn spoiled and it often amazes me how tolerant my stomach is to germs and virus of sorts. Why am i suffering in my room trying to finish up the food when i can buy warm, healthy food outside. [Surely the food outside isn't that bad compared to overnight food] It just doesn't make sense.

Stressed

2008-05-19T07:10:00.002-05:00

I was supposed to have a 4-days weekend last week, but i did not really enjoy much of it. There goes the only holiday that i'll get this semester. My energy was literally depleted and all i wanted to do was to sleep for 24 hours straight. Life's a bitch though, piles and piles of assignments and presentation are tugging my conscience and i feel like i'm gradually breaking down inside. Pieces of my life is shattering to millions of pieces and i couldn't find the balance within all the mess that i'm going through everyday.

My life can't go on like this. I think that i'm starting to go crazy in all these stress. I need a break during the weekend but club activities are holding me back from it. I want to relax too, but nobody seems to understand >< I want to participate in something outside from academic work and the price seems a little huge for me to bear with. I don't want to disappoint my friends, but i seriously need a break. Everything is coming together and i just feel like i can't breathe.

Right, currently not Emo-ing anymore after talking to Sulin :-D Thanks Girl!

Calculus 3 sucks!

2008-05-15T07:56:00.002-05:00

I'd always known that my drawing sucks, but i wasn't always aware that it'd take me 3 hours to draw a damn circle on a plane @#$@%$^%@! My imagination on 3D objects are so freaking bad that i need to draw the same graph for multiple times before i get it right. Somehow, it still doesn't look like a 3D picture to me. If this goes on, god bless me, i don't know how many ostrich eggs that i'll manage to get by the end of the semester.

Back for more updates

2008-05-15T03:21:00.004-05:00

Seems like someone's unhappy with the fact that i always leave my post undone lol, so now i shall try my very best to complete it and keep you all posted on my pathetic life.

Kaisouki Matsuri is around the corner and i'm feeling all excited about it. For those who are unaware of what this is, the poster is as below.

Nowadays, classes are nightmares. With 24 hours cramp in 4 days, i can barely find time for lunch. With the amount of sandwiches that i consume within a week, i have high faith that i'd develop a sandwiches-phobia soon.

I've been locking myself up in my room for days but i still find myself wondering how the hours manage to slip through my finger tips. Sigh, i still have a long long way to catch up with the speed that the lessons are going. Somehow, this is just the beginning of semester. I wonder what nightmares awaits me at the end of the road. Suicidance?

Berembun

2008-05-12T03:35:00.003-05:00

hHello people, sorry for being such a lazy bum these days. I do realize that i've neglected blogging for almost one whole week [i'm so sorry for that] I've been busy with work and club event.

After having to fabricate the camping experience for so many times in my life in order to write some karangan, i finally get the real experience last weekend. I just came back from Bukit Berembun yesterday and i still can't believe that i actually went to a camping trip and survived. My blood was not spilled and no evil mini vampires were found leeching off my blood when i take off my shoes. I did saw a few mini leeches sucking on the surface of my sleeping back as well as the tent. They were probably trying to find a way to get inside or something. Either way, it's definitely not cute.

Lesson no 1: Always check your shoes for any bees, leeches and insects of sort before you wear it when you are in wild. Who knows what you'll find inside it, especially if you leave it outside the tent over night.

Next, I wasn't stung by any annoying bees either even though they were constantly around the pondok [someone get the english word for me please]. Things weren't so merry for my group member, Tiffany though, she got stung on the first day and had to take injection today in a near clinic near by.

Lesson no 2: Never ever try to chase a bee away with your hands or legs or any part of your body. Those little insects will see you as a threat and try to hurt you [or intend to murder you with the small little needle] while killing themselves on the same time. And boy does it hurt like the scorching of fire from hell.

--to be continued, currently feeling very sleepy

Frustrated

2008-05-05T10:18:00.000-05:00

I just typed a very long entry, but it’s all lost now all thanks to the lousy connection. It tricked me into thinking that it’s posted, I found that the entry is not there when I viewed my blog. I do not understand why the connection in inti is so sucky that even Digi broadband is getting slow on certain days such as today. I’m definitely not going to retype my entry that is at least 350 words long. I do feel like breaking, screaming or pulling out my hair from the frustration that I felt.

UPGRADE the CONNECTION DAMNIT!

In short, I’m taking Discrete Structure, US history 1, Calculus 3, Malaysian studies and Physics 1 that make up a total of 18 credit hour. Yup, I summarized a 350 words into one sentence. How cool huh..

Finally bought Eclipse, by Stephenie Meyer.

2008-05-03T11:31:00.006-05:00

After staring dejectedly at the hardcover novel for numerous time during my many trips to the bookstore, i finally have the money to buy the third book of my all time favorite series, Eclipse.

That leaves me as the faithful reader to Stephenie Meyer's work hoho. My friends are curious as to why i still insist on getting that book even though i had done reading the ebook. My reply is that i have never loved reading an english story book, or any story book for that matter like the way i'm addicted to manga story lines. Never in my life have i ever been addicted to a story line that deeply. I've read Harry Potter but i'm not obsessed with the plot. I've read a couple of books here and there but not more than 10. All in all, i just want to have a copy so that i can take it along with me in my bag pack.

I've finally decided that the book is worth reading over and over again even though it's written in simple English that are meant for the young adults. I figure that it wouldn't hurt to understand every single word in that book before moving on to something more advance like Lord of the Rings or Da Vinci Code.

Hair trouble

2008-05-03T10:51:00.004-05:00

Woke up at 10 30 today and spent more than half an hour trying to fix my hair up. First, i tried to clip a small portion of my hair up with a simple hair clip. Somehow, i couldn't find a way to make myself look presentable enough. Pissed that i couldn't make my hair look smooth and shiny, i pulled the hair clip out again and again, ended up loosing more than a few strands of hair.

Seeing that i'm getting late, i gave up trying to tame my wild hair and pulled it up into a low pony tail on the right side of my head. My fringe covered up my right ear completely, making me feel a tad bit irritated. Unsatisfied with that, i tried to stick my hair behind my ears only to find out that i don't exactly look good with that style.

Then, i finally decide that i'll just pull my hair up into your everyday pony tail and leave it as it is. My hair still look messy but figuring that i'm so late that the Malaysian time excuse no longer works, i just give up and went to change.

Moral of the story:
1) Just want to let the guys know why girls take more than an hour trying to get ready.
2) Get your hair wet the next time! Geeze, how can i not think of that at that moment!

Back To School

2008-05-02T06:47:00.005-05:00

Went back to Chong Hwa today to get my spm certs as well as my leave-school-certificate. I saw that nothing much had changed (the out look), but i didn't stay there long enough to snap any picture. I didn't even get to stop by the teacher's office to have a little reunion with them, and i most definitely didn't walk around the school enough to see how much it has changed within a year.

It was nearly 3:10 when i reached the school. Therefore, it wasn't that surprising not to be able to find anyone at the second floor 教务处. I wonder what those 教务处 people are doing. Probably having tea somewhere. I got my certs and everything in less than 15 minutes. You can imagine how i was running about the school, carrying my legs as fast as i could without having to exhaust myself. I was trying to avoid the traffic that is sure to come when the little bees are free from the school compound.

I only manage to see that the hall has been newly renovated. Sad to say, there are no longer any reason for me to return to my secondary school after retrieving my certs today. I have also noticed that the pictures of students who scored well in SPM has been replaced by the 2007 batch. There are no longer any traces of me in that school. Perhaps a record/profile in the computer database and that's it. My life there in that school is literally over today.

After that, i went to Chung Kwok school, my primary school. I graduated from that school during year 2002. Over a short period of 6 years, i saw that the school canteen has been renovated twice ( at least twice). It looks much more hygienic and beautiful now compared to how it used to be. It most definitely wouldn't give you the creeps when you walk past that place during early mornings. There are no longer any run down buildings for naughty kids to come out with nasty ghost stories. I can no longer see the LRT passing through from the second floor. It's all covered up now.

This roof wasn't there few years back.
The security room.
The inner look. The book store that replaced the foot stall and nasi lemak stall.

The one place where i never get to stand on before
when a crowd was gathered in front of it.

The pond has been demolished. The class names had changed. It's no longer CKS. Now, i can only see the word Jasmine etc etc above the classroom door. The book store had been moved over to the fruit stall area. There are no longer any trees within the school area. No longer any trees that provide us shade or as another ghost story material [I used to find red color juices seeping out from the branches] I can see a few Hibiscus bushes though, a peach colored hibiscus. That's pretty much about it.

AUP Semester 2 result is out :D

2008-05-02T05:49:00.002-05:00

Ohoho.. currently feeling very happy after having a look at my results :D...

Enough said :D

Happy Birthday Duck Duck :=D

2008-05-01T12:58:00.002-05:00

I think that some of you might be wondering who she really is :D (or some of you might think that it's none of your business. Therefore in that case, you can just skip this post :D )

Her real name is Ooi Siew Kien. Happy Birthday My Sweet :D Thanks for being there since primary school =) Love the moments we used to spend together early morning before class started. How i miss you. It's a big disappointment that i wouldn't be able to meet you again this holiday but know that i'm glad that we always have something to tell each other despite the fact that we have different directions/ path in our life.

My only friend that loves to hug and hold hands like we're lovers :-D I just want to say that you make those actions less awkward for me :) Hope that a nice person like you will find yourself doing well in NTU =)

Again, let me wish you, Happy Birthday :D

Generators

2008-04-30T06:25:00.030-05:00

:D Thanks to Sulin, i've stumbled upon a wonderful blog that has links to several generators that create funny pictures =) You might wanna try it out :D
*NOTE: All these pictures are generated :) *

soap

scoreboard
Airways
paparazzi

I know that the hands are a little bit freaky ahahahahah

Symmetric

This time, i'm switching my face instead of my hair :D

A little fake but.... :D

Not too bad for being silver blondie huh :P

Swap pictures

Great designs, plenty of choices for you to choose from. A lot of sexy pictures too ^^''.
Overall a great place for you to generate your own personal wallpaper. Too bad they don't allow us to upload our own photos :)
wallpaper generator

Photo splitter

Vote for my pic here

Create Fake Magazine Covers with your own picture at MagMyPic.com

Hehehe.. an inner joke to someone named Sulin

Elegant looking? hohohoho
I know.. i know, i look very aunty..
Create posh pictures

Ohoho, hope Mr Chan doesn't see this..
WhiteBoard

Ahh, how i wish someone would press on that button :)
KeyBoard

Toys

Death Expulsion... Does it mean that i'm immortal? :D
Here you go

Hair virtual makeover

2008-04-30T05:36:00.007-05:00

I had some fun playing around with this online program just now :P You might wanna have fun trying out various hairstyle too :P Saves you the trouble of trying to figure out which hair style suits you nicely :D

Here's what i've got :D

Mid Valley Make Over session -- By Sunsilk

2008-04-27T08:24:00.004-05:00

Actually i just wanna post this picture up sahaja ahahaha..

Happy happy shopping

2008-04-26T08:21:00.004-05:00

Went shopping with my mum earlier this afternoon. Bought two pairs of shoes, one top and a swimming suit. Therefore right now i'm in a very good mood. Ahh, shopping never fails to keep me in high spirits. =) Well, it probably doesn't look that way to my brother but oh well =) We used vouchers and swept his card a few times too lol..

Busy cam whoring in the fitting room ahaha. Bought this cutie under mum's expense lol.

Hooray, the one and only 堂记兄弟 Egg Tart XD

Well, the shoes.

Guess what's inside these cute little teddy bears?
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It's pudding lol, and a rather pricely pudding.
It's around RM23 i think, imported from Japan.
It's very very very cuteeeeee! Too bad i don't eat puddings.